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  1. ACK I'M SO THRILLED/EXCITED AHHHHHH!!!!
  2. Been a while! Have some art! Sinlanna reading Isadore a book about DRAGONS. Cause Isa loves that shit.
  3. I dunno some goblin girl. Hahaha you guys thought you got rid of me.
  4. ((YOU. YOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! *has a heart attack*))
  5. *The book lies weathered and beaten on a workshop table, leather curling at the edges. It’s cover, sun-baked to a light brown, looks littered with discoloration of suspicious origins. Chemical burns have eaten away at junctures along the spine, so that the entire thing looks on the point of collapse. Little pieces of parchment jut from various areas between pages* *Inside is written notes from what looks like a dedicated but haphazard hand. Alongside sketches detailing the anatomy of various herbs are listings of properties in a tight scrawl. Further in are dated entries.* The Grim: Still active. Still as blood-thirsty as ever. I’m simultaneously impressed by their durability and disappointed that their organization has not fallen into ruin like so many others. Cobrak: Deadshot. Grim. Accountable. *Needs an entire entry. Obnoxious Orc. Syreena: Grim. Quick to draw a blade. Twice now I’ve seen her make an attempt on a member of the Horde only to discover that the reasoning appears, at first glance, murky at best. She’s civil with me for now. Aware of Isadore. Aaren: Borrowed Time. Hot-headed, will act on her own. Useful priestess in the right situations. *in smaller lettering* Delightful rear. Julilee: Sanctuary. Unsure of her. Could be a powerful ally, but she seems consumed by her own demons. Pythral: Deadshot. Trustworthy. Also delightful rear.
  6. The land mocks me. From a young girl who wavered between the idleness of school and home, I was rootless. My parents had no grander plans for me, as they struggled to reclaim their glory and seek revenge over those who cursed our vineyard. Now these hills take no roots, as if to mirror their holder. The unnecessary mockery of it stings my ego. Much of my story has been told already, in these past entries. Their message echoes into my future, the tale referencing itself as it remains unfinished. Isendur’s story might see it’s final chapter, at least. Something’s changed. When I dwell on the past, and thoughts of him, it is like glancing across the expanse of the ocean to seek out where my boat had once been moored only to find the horizon line of the sea. What had tethered me to his memory might not be unlike the motivations of a child clinging to their toy; he was once familiar and his cruelty distant enough in my memory that I felt comfort in using him as the foundations for the manner in which I lived my life. But he is long gone, or dead. I often blamed him for my inability to be happy. He molded what already existed inside of me into a weapon that I use to protect myself against the world. That I understand parts of myself so thoroughly is due to his teaching. He was more than a teacher, or the first to ignite the light of my maiden affections. He became a god, the center of my universe. Disillusioned by his absence, I’ve pierced the threshold of his claim to my mind to reach the other side, blinking into clarity like a fawn’s first gaze upon the mortal world, drifting aimless into the haze of my future without his ghost to guide me. With great reluctance I recognize that the freedom I refused to seek on my own has found me, unlatched the chains without my notice, and coaxingly shoved me forward. What of the Wolf’s legacy? He left two students,lacking in direction, lost, finding a false solace in one another. Faelenor and I have never been closer than we are now. I fear that, not unlike the shadow in which we dwell, we will constantly seek out each other, to feed one another until our self-cannibalism ends us. And of Faelenor’s wife? She is beautiful, but worn. She doles out mercy, and it can be vast, but there are droughts. She is more complicated than I allowed her, which is my mistake. While she is a passionate woman, and can rally her strength just as all else seems hopeless, her quiet insecurities have slipped under my skin to fester. Or is it my own uncertainty that I see in her? It is, after all, easier to pick apart someone else’s anxieties than to examine my own. I try to forge a relationship with the elder children. Phyruss has an edge of rebellion to him that I find unbecoming in a young lord. He allows his childish anger to rule over him in times when decorum is required. I find myself disappointed to learn that the Sinlanna of his timeline neglected to teach him the power of a level head in times of great stress. His respect for me, during those moments when our opinions clash, takes on the quality of a play-act. His insolence against my decisions, my authority, grates on the little patience I can muster. He tests me and wastes the precious time of those who are generous enough to offer him advice and instruction. His discourtesy for others cripples his ability to learn. I wait for life to cut him at the knees, to humble him, so that he might be given the opportunity to mature. The eldest girl, Dora, mirrors her brother at times. As of late, however, I prefer his vibrancy to her inaction. Where Dora was once energetic, she has become listless. She has made only a handful of excursions outside the manor property since she arrived at my doorstep nearly a full lunar cycle ago. She’s a ghost of the girl I have come to know, haunting the rows of withered grape vines in the way of a solid spectre, her black hair a shadow among the posts. I would be more concerned if I wasn’t entirely sure that the girl will find her path, soon. She’s only wounded for now. Even as she struggles with herself, I can see the spark beginning to return to her eyes like that of her many mechanical creations which reside in the makeshift barn. My own path is much less clear, riddled with the shattered fragments of my mistakes. In the path I see my many broken promises. It was foolish for anyone to believe in the word of a noble, for we are thieves of more than gold. We are thieves of prestige. We invite you into the trappings of our world, to dance the sophisticated turns of our wordplay, until we take what we deign to relieve from our prey before we release them with their reputation bloodied by the maw of our societal teeth. But some bite back. My first memory of Zakael Solsmite involved his flushed face as he dangled from a tree, caught in the trap laid out by an orc boy so young he’d not seen his first hunt. The next has my fingertips pressed into his breastbone, walking him backwards into an infirmary wall. “You’re so very shy,” I told him. “Oh sweet boy, you don’t have to be afraid of me. Does a woman’s body inspire so much hesitation in you?” "W-wll, n-no, or yes..I mean...I-I...." He stammered, shrunken against the wall. Faintly, I heard the laughter of Aaren muffled by a blanket. Pythral’s giggle sounded closer, louder, and it fueled me further. I watched his eyes, wide and panicked, dart along the neckline of my tunic. I pulled him down until I felt the shell of his ear under my lips. “If you’re a good boy, I might help you overcome those fears of yours.” I turned my back on him then to take in the sight of Pythral’s lips curving around her tusks as she snorted another laugh. He ran from the room, his robes billowing behind him like a sail. I worked alongside him as a potions specialist and shadowmender in the Frostridge base. He dropped bundles of bandages in my presence, knocked over carts of supplies, and made himself a nuisance underfoot, but at least he amused me. Then, as is inevitable in the company of our kin, there was talk of the Fall. And me, as the only mentalist available, was forced to dive into the mind of Zakael who had gone silent, with symptoms of shock. Some of us coped with our loss by finding purpose in the destruction. Some of us became Wretched, destitute creatures who are more monster than elf. Some of us became united, no longer Quel’dorei, but Sin’dorei with a kinship forged in blood. Some of us hid away, to lick our wounds in the quiet left after the storm. Most of them (who only became a ‘them’ after the blood spill, who had once been a part of ‘us’) died, without mercy. Some of us went insane with our grief, like Zakael; who frothed at the mouth, struggling against bindings, whose mad eye pivoted between infinite walls to a stare safely secured behind a small, square peephole. The memory, his memory of the events directly after the Fall, collapsed under my stare like a mirage that I’d approached too closely. When I rose back to consciousness, I saw the sail of his departure billow at his back, this time a flag of surrender. Our acquaintanceship loosened from its previous strain. With several tides of the moon’s shifting shape, Zakael changed. He offered his reasoning to me along with a steaming cup of tea; he found a half of himself that was missing, making him unbalanced and skittish. While I was away hunting rare specimens to cure Aaren of her ailment, he had braved his fear of the Shadow, and made himself whole. When we met again, he had sought me out for advice. He had a child well on the way, and his relationship with the mother creaked with the strain of two youth who misunderstood love and loneliness. I counseled him, to the best of my ability. The eventuality of our shared time together had taught me more about the young man, my student. His youth placed him in the path of a traveling caravan. The Fall’s aftermath saw him locked away in a cell, with him deemed magically unstable. A human deacon, whose name I’ve carved into a throwing knife that I keep on my boot sheath, taught him to fear the Shadow. I learned of his patience. I learned of his intolerance for the mistreatment of others. That he was strong, and his strength became mine when I broke that accursed staff that held my captivation during the events of investigating the Quorum. I ignored his youthful affection for me, much the same as Isendur to mine. I wouldn’t touch my student. The madness of my obsession with Naheal shed itself from my mind with an aching slowness, leaving me raw and unwilling to allow another so close again so quickly. I learned of my student’s persistence. His presence became wind, to wear me down. Then I took a space in his bed. His eyes professed love. I stayed silent, smiling, and let him believe what he liked of my affection. There were moments, when he jerked my chin in his hand, forcing me to meet his stare, where I was nearly convinced that he could provide more than a crutch to lean against while I recovered myself. That, maybe, this is what I needed afterall. Perhaps I was afraid of what he offered. In my mind, I never saw a future where I could be happy. I am not one built for happiness, I lie to myself. The lie holds fast against everything that the past fortnight forced me to experience. When I saw Zakael again, we’d not yet spoken of my arrangement with the Rayfeathers. I’d been angry, insulted by a scheming little shadow priest and his shadow minion. I was looking for a fight. When Zakael asked after my ‘toys’, I knew I had found it. I asked him if he thought my little birds were lovely. "Shame they must settle for a flea-bitten alley cat who startles at the first sign of trouble and flees with her tail between her legs." That day, I had no patience left for words, not when the seduction of violence was so strong in my blood. I threw the brunt of my shadowmagic as a whip towards his frame; he screamed into my mind. He used the remnants of the connection we had once forged between each other, as two mentalists can. Once, his presence had been a soft hymn in the back of my mind, a comfort. We fought until he had his staff shoved up against my throat. "What are you going to do, Zak?" I asked, feeling feral, "Going to put down the little alley cat?" "No," he answered me, without inflection, his hand on the back of my vest. "Merely show everyone what you are." Then he ripped the fabric. Weeks have passed. I find myself able to write of these events, but even now, in the safety of my home, I find it difficult to breath. His staff against my windpipe. There were chains of Light, that would bind me if I had let them. I escaped. How could you? But I escaped. I spoke with the Rayfeathers. I learned that he had lost his child, and the mother who birthed her. He’d been half-mad. And when I realized that the girl had been stolen from him, it was several days later when I could offer him my resources, to help find Jeho. "I'll find them both without your help, so try and atone yourself somewhere else." "You've lost your right to claim the moral high ground, Zakael. You have crimes of your own of which require repentance. But your child doesn't deserve your punishment, or mine." "And NOW you care about my child?!” he had roared, "After you turned your back on her and me? When you abscond to heaven knows where and leave us behind?! I should blame YOU for her disappearance, when you always had myself to watch over Isadore, and could never bother returning the favor!" I’m so sorry, Zakael. I’m so sorry. With every fellowship that I try to cultivate, I wonder if my impatience threatens them. Like the land that was handed to me by my ancestors, I tend to the plots but they bear me no fruit. I hack away at withered vines, I toil under a burning sun to till the land, and then in my haste I burn them, assuming them useless when they refuse to sprout.
  7. Every once in awhile, a doodle gets wildly out of hand. This is one such example. Here's the B&W version, because I love it too much not to put it up.
  8. Because I was sick of not having an avatar for Dora.
  9. They’ve responded to my request in a week’s time. The bumbling idiots that act as administration to the Seminary of the Sunflare will pay the price for ignoring my initial inquiries. They need to quickly learn the worth of their history if they intend to re-establish their house as a sanctum of learning, or else they’ll lose favor with their previous benefactors. They’ll heed the name Arath’dorei again, as they did for the Patriarch Bacrean. His granddaughter will know the same respect. I’ll make do with the recruits they’ve sent me for now. Three acolytes whose names I’ve not bothered to learn stumbled off their horses to knock into themselves on the front lawn. They inspired little hope in me. Listening to their conversation as they ate in kitchen, however, proved worthwhile. With their seclusion assumed, I learned that one of the acolytes acted as senior to the others. He alone engaged in prayer before their meal. It evoked memories of the convent; of a time of belief as opposed to the more utilitarian philosophies that his younger counterparts practice. Their consecration of the land had much the same effect as the efforts of the clerics they came to replace. I predict to regain that eighth of an acre in the time they spend with me, assuming they last the length of their contractual obligation. The last of the missing vineyards. I’ll finally see a hoe taken to that despoiled earth in the hope that it will once again bear fruit. Years of painful reconstruction, of regaining ground with each channeled force of Light against the decay will produce a milestone set in weeks time. I see the revitalization of the Sunwell soaking into the rotten earth. I see progress. But what of the future? I’d started this reconstruction initially for the sake of myself and my unborn child as we had nowhere else to go. It’d been a project born of necessity, to assure the safety of myself and the life I carried. Now the initial driving force behind the venture is no longer relevant. This has become a matter of pride, to restore the fallen name of the Arath’dorei family to it’s former glory. Yet I am inescapably plagued with questions. To whom do I bequeath the responsibility of the manor’s care in my inevitable passing? To my youngest daughter that I’ve raised from birth? To the son that I claim as mine, who certainly shares my blood but whose true mother died in a timeline apart? Or to the eldest, who flagrantly disrespects any notion of tradition in favor of fraternizing with the shorter-lived races? She’s never once shown interest in my values. Not that it matters much in the grand scheme; her lover will die long before either of us. There is opportunity to find her a more suitable partner before too late. My son's competency matched with his obvious attachment to his original mother makes him the most promising candidate. I'll take him on a tour of the grounds, divine if he has any interest. None of this takes into account the complication of the Rayfeathers. They make concerning proclamations. Amalyn’s optimism comes seemingly from blind faith, which I naturally distrust. It also inspires strongly felt sentiment within me. I’ve called it love, but in the distance I’ve taken with these overnight journeys to the Arath’dorei Estate, I’ve regained some of that clarity she steals from me by being in her presence. In those lucid moments, I’m forced to recognize that love and passion wear similar trappings. Infatuation is the fool’s gold of emotion. Only time can tell me if I’ve misjudged and even then the investment might lead us all to ruin. Faelenor. I’m afraid that he wants the impossible. He entertains the idea of acting as an alchemist, to break apart the foundations of my being and to separate the pieces of myself that belong to Isendur. When I met Isendur, transmutation occurred. He was the catalyst for a change within myself that stems from his teachings, forever altering who I am. Of the reagent that was the laughing, lonely priestess, there is nothing left. Only the product of his methodology and everything that I am. Part of the draw between Faelenor and myself is that darkness that Isendur cultivated within us, but which existed inside of us long before we met our teacher. By suggesting that we could be free of this...is he denying a part of himself? And worse still is the lingering betrayal, the thought that perhaps there lies a critical difference between us which will fracture our tenuous relationship with each other. If I was given the key to my freedom of all that is the Wolf, I’d find a means to destroy it.
  10. On the insistence of Shae bae, I am creating this thread for others who would like to participate in this mood board creation! There are plenty of places online to find templates if you have any skill whatsoever using photoshop. Since some people have asked, this is my personal explanation of what a mood board is: A mood board, or an aesthetic board, is a collection of images meant to give an overall impression of a theme using color and imagery tied to that theme. So for instance, Djara is a shaman who uses a lot of voodoo elements in her work, hence the voodoo bowls and the fetishes. Make sure you write what character it is for whom you are creating the board! And also feel free to explain elements of the board if you like, but remember that the board is meant to give an impression of your character. I'll repost mine for the sake of example: Djara no Mueh'zala Cobrak Deadeye
  11. *vomits lineart and coloring* *calls it art* Dora as Frisk from Undertale
  12. Sinlanna Sketches Volume 2

    Have a quick sketch of Zak and his baby.
  13. Can't be Sin...she's occupied. But I think we can work something out.
  14. When I get a reason to rp with your sorry butt, that's when! =P
  15. Have a quick sketch of Zak and his baby. This post has been promoted to an article
  16. I sit at a vanity table whose contents I recognize but have never touched. There’s threads or hair like copper wire weaving through the bristles of a paddle brush, the ends of them resting against the ivory handle. Rosewater in a crystal decanter. Vanilla extract encased in amber, the phial no bigger than my thumb. When I look into the reflection of the mirror, I see the expanse of the bed’s rolling hills. I can see the divot I had made lying in the valley they make. While I had rested there, hands that weren’t mine had reached for each other, the fingers woven together to create a cup over the rise of my hip. I had seen the sunlight filter through the curtains, past the heavy drapes hanging from the canopy, reaching out in it’s envy to touch on the miracle of that gentle love and know true warmth. How I have stolen into this sweetness, I will never know. They’ve given me a new purpose. With it, a whetstone upon which I sharpen my blades. I’ve found few motivators that invigorate me more than possessive obsession. What kind of monster will I become, should they come under threat? I want to know. When I imagine the kind of violence that can be inspired by my devotion for them, my frustration rattles through me. The universe will provide me that opportunity soon enough, but the tedium of the wait has me restless. Amazing, how their love will give me power to become a horror like I’ve never known. What does that power feel like in its manifestation? It’s trapped in my veins, desperate for an outlet. I am aware of it’s undercurrent with every glance I steal over their prone bodies tucked under the sheets. My two treasures. Amalyn, in her tranquility. Faelenor, whose troubled heart quiets with the serenity of sleep, to lax his face into a softness that I’ve never seen before. There will never be enough mornings to allow my eye’s exploration and find satiation in the study of his morning repose. I imagine crawling across the length of the bed, rustling the blanket, and stealing a kiss of Amalyn’s mouth. She has her head rolled to the side on the plush down of her pillow, with her neck tempting me. The space between us now feels intolerable, but if I gave in to that milky softness of her, I’d be helpless to keep from claiming the rest. To push away the silk of her nightgown, to know what her shoulder tastes like after a night’s sleep. To hear her breathless exhale when she stirs under my attention. What other noises could I draw out of her, her voice rough with hours of disuse? But I can’t, not yet. There’s still so much uncertainty between us. This requires patience. The reward that waits for me at the end of my effort keeps me tempered in my actions. For that, I find my fortitude to endure.
  17. <p>YOU. Have no earthly idea how loud I squealed when I saw that post on Sin's journal. Thank you for sending me into a dizzying euphoria <3</p>

  18. I described Amalyn Rayfeather as a beautiful woman. I’m about to spend the next several lines rectifying this mistake. I allowed myself to ruminate over that guilt whose source I cannot define. It followed me well into the early hours of the morning, until I realized that the night had passed without rest. Just thoughts of how I could make amends, or simply to speak to Amalyn again without shame curdling in my chest. I came up a plan, and set out to Dalaran to acquire the materials. When I returned to the base with the sun still hiding below the horizon line, I spied Zakael with the mother of his child. He held the baby in his arms. They looked like a family, even if the mother’s unique features might seem strange to behold at first glance. I couldn’t stop seeing the potential for happiness between the three of them. I left. I found Amalyn later that morning, looking over post. When I asked to speak with her privately, I hadn’t any expectation for how she would regard me beyond contempt. But while the ill will was plain between us, she only mentioned that she’d anticipated this moment and asked that I lead her to a more secluded location. She’s a lady of surprises, certainly. I’d imagine the various possibilities for this particular conversation, with each outcome a varying degree of bleak. But I also considered what I wanted to accomplish by speaking with her. I decided that, as deception ranked highest among my crimes, I would open myself to her questions. I implored her to ask anything of me. I would lay out for her the entire truth to the best of my ability. Allow her the opportunity to flay me if that would satisfy her. But she didn’t want my pain. She said she’d already reflected over what occurred between her husband and myself. She offered the opportunity of confession instead, if it helped to assuage my guilt. Even when I voiced my doubt, she said she’d accept whatever I wished to tell her and that if she had questions, she’d ask me. I was blindsided by her kindness. She approached me, and I recall warm radiance from the Light of her aura. So I told her everything. About how losing Naheal’s guidance meant I lost my sense of direction. About how, even in the welcoming atmosphere of Borrowed Time, I felt alone, more alone than I had after the Fall. It was only now that I’d come to appreciate how much we’d lost. In the death of our countrymen, we also lost our traditions, our society. Broken, yes- as the daughter of a mouldering family name, I’m intimately familiar with our own skewed ideologies. Still, it was ours. And there are so few families left. Broken individual Sin’dorei make up our contribution to the Horde ranks. Blood kin is far rarer, and often rife with unhappiness. But in the Rayfeathers, I saw the example I wanted for the future of my people. She’d asked if I wanted their happiness for myself. She continued to answer her own question, saying she already knew I wouldn’t do that to them. She trusted me. She said it pained her more than if it had been someone she hated. I wished then that she hated me as much as I hated myself. I explained to her that I didn’t know what I could have done differently. Should I have told her about that lust, I asked her? Would it have been worth the pain when it might not have amounted to anything at all? She said she understood. Truly, she understood. She even offered me the assurance that we would both regain her trust. As if I’d somehow earned it then. She’s a woman of compassion like I’ve never seen before. And certainly it is a compassion that I’ve never experienced in my own life. Dalaran’s activities provided me a gift that I was able to pass to her then. I told her that trust takes time and effort to rebuild, and that I hoped she would consider my offering effort towards that end. In the box were bottles, the self-labeling kind with the analytical spell cast over the vessel to determine the brew. Useful thing, especially to chemists. And as she is a practitioner of the trade, I thought she might appreciate it. I had hoped that, at best, she would accept the present with a thank you. That her arms locked around my waist to pull me into a hug seemed like a far-removed daydream too impossible to even entertain with any gratification. I can still feel her in my arms. I can smell the unique mouldering of books from her robes. The inadequacy of my whispered thanks made me small, like I was a pebble’s shadow in the enormity of her generous heart’s resplendence. I fell in love with her then. When I consider the mirroring of my life and Faelenor’s, I realize I shouldn’t have been so surprised. I told her that I understood why he loves her. She hugged me tighter in the middle of that abandoned meeting room. “And I understand why he loves you.” It was a capsule of time filled with impossible possibilities. That she said those words- what had it all meant? My mind fractured then. How was she capable of holding the woman who was one half of her husband’s affair and tell her that she understood why he could love me? Wouldn’t the obvious conclusion be that she could see something in me worth loving? But how? I pulled away before I could reveal how very lost I’d become and let her know I was happy she liked her gift. We spoke further about estates, and children. Conversations I haven’t had with anyone else who could truly understand what it’s like to love a home like it were a member of the family. But we shared sympathies on topics I hold close to my heart. She became air the way Faelenor felt before, when I spoke to him on the beach. She called my daughter lovely. “Lovely, smart...Just like her mother.” I don’t know that I will ever forget the way she looked. She’d been sitting in the only chair. I’d found a space on the only desk. She was slouched over, her chin in her palm, and her smile hiding behind the curve of her fingers. Everything about her radiated warmth, and I felt again that Faelenor and I live parallel lives, that it would have been impossible for me to keep from falling in love with the woman he married. “There is a lovely woman here,” I had said. “But it isn’t me.” She blushed, and straightened in her chair to turn away from me. She kept on with compliments. Called me intelligent, fleet-footed and quick witted. On and on, as if I were worth praising. She’s impossible. A series of impossible kindnesses dressed in crimson and framed in auburn hair. And she was shy. Blushing. Beautiful. I wanted to carve into her then. To slash my name across her beating heart and claim her as mine, because the Beast demanded it. But I promised her I would never let another thing hurt her if it was within my capability to protect, which included saving her from myself. I don’t think she ever realized the danger she put herself in when she took my hand. She asked me why she mattered. I asked her to look at the world in which we lived. A barren wasteland with war upon us in endless waves. Inhospitable to love, to tenderness. And yet despite the tragedy of her life, her heart remained open. She has the strength to love deeply without reservation. It’s beautiful, I told her, and worth keeping safe at any cost. "But that is precisely why everyone deserves love. Because so many have lost it or lost how to give it. Every living being should know a loving touch, a loving ear, a loving home. Even our enemies have the capacity of love for their own families and friends, we just see the world differently. Even you deserve love, despite what wrongs you believe you've committed." I turned my back to her then, claiming that she couldn’t possibly know enough about me to judge if I am worthy of anything, let alone love. Then her arms anchored me against her. My neck prickles as I recall how she breathed three simple words into my ear. You. Deserve. Love. If she had left it at that, I could have found the strength to push her away. But then she kissed me on my cheek. Something long-pressed and filled with meaning. I kissed her on the lips, to deduce that meaning for myself. I tasted her fear. I felt her trembling in my arms. But she clung to me like reality would shatter if she didn’t. Then it ended just as quickly. I thought she was exquisite when she blushed. But she was devastating when she was debauched, with the mixing of our lipstick smeared along a cheek and her red hair wildly framed around her pale face. Forgive me, she begged. She spoke the name of her husband, and it was then that I knew not even her absolution could save me from the destruction that I’d caused. Amalyn Rayfeather is not merely beautiful. She’s a pillar of benevolence wrapped in crimson. She’s playful, coy. She has weight from motherhood that is soft to touch and rolls over the edge of her skirt. And for her, I will pay my penance because even if I can’t stop myself from hurting her, I can at least kill the creature that’s tortured her and her family. I’ll find Arcturil and kill him myself.
  19. I’ve never been one to believe in Fate. To do so would remove agency from my choices; it’s a convenient way to explain away uncomfortable circumstances or to give meaning to events that would otherwise have none, often to the benefit of a person’s agenda. Evidence as of late has brought that time-old debate back into relevancy. The facets of my life each bear a thread. My curiosity forced me to tug at the various lines I’ve laid out behind me. I begin to unravel them. I’ve mentioned before that when I was younger, I attended a convent under the suggestion of my family. I lost them, and any desire to return to the convent well after that. My envy of the priestesses’ innate control over the Light faded once I discovered that I wore Shadow like a comfortable cloak. Isendur’s guidance allowed for my growth. Isendur. He was more than a teacher. He became a void that took everything; from the focus of my thoughts to the years I spent raising his child. Perhaps that meddling Bronze drake wanted Naheal’s continued service to this universe, but he’s disappeared. With it, Kerri’s influence. Perhaps her lies were more palatable than the truth. Regardless, I see Isendur’s height in Isadore as she grows. I see his cheekbones in her elongating face. Thankfully, his cruelty has yet to manifest in his offspring. This does pose questions; if the Isadore of my womb is Isendur’s child, as is Dora from a timeline parallel to ours up until the past year, then who is Phyruss’ father? An investigation for later. But while Isendur remains my most influential teacher, I was not his only student. Those who became ensnared by the tendrils of his tutelage bear the same histories, to a point. To be his student is to know carnal pleasure with him. We all wear literal and figurative scars from from his sexual appetite. Faelenor Rayfeather was no exception. The connection between Faelenor and myself tempted me to pull. We were alone, in the crumbling ruins of a tower in Lordareon, discussing plans to invade the Moshu’gun Vaults. My interest diverted. I took the thread, and tugged. He taught Faelenor in a similar fashion to me. With manipulation, seduction. He hunted us, to our great satisfaction. Yet to learn of Faelenor’s history is to delve deeper into Isendur’s savagery. With the methods Isendur employed on me, he applied restraint. With Faelenor...there was none. No gentleness. Just destruction. Faelenor had to create a part of himself to house all of the darkness that Isendur inspired. Every pleasure he took in ending a life, every sinful thought, every blood-stained memory; the coagulation of it all took the name Arcturil, meant to protect the untarnished pieces of Faelenor’s soul. Faelenor and I...are so much more similar than we could have ever guessed. We both know the dark craft of creating masks to hide behind. We both know how to use cruelty to it’s most effective potential, and how to use sweetness. We both have an insatiable curiosity, have both taken on students of our own, in the same fashion as the old Wolf. Isendur is reflected in everything that we do, even in the way that we interacted with our students. I seduced, the way Isendur did with me. I toyed with my pupil. I kept him at a distance. Then I allowed our intimacy, when he’d been properly ripened. My attraction to Faelenor isn’t something I completely understand. Watching him interact with his daughter stirs a yearning in me for a similar influence in Isadore’s life. A partner to involve himself in the quiet moments of life between the battles where exists times like tending to my garden or reading to Isadore until she falls asleep in her bed. But this isn’t the whole of it; if it was, then my requirements have already been met in another individual. So there must be more. I consider our little bouts of banter that entertain us. He provides that freely. There’s an element of familiarity to him that almost borders on narcissism. I see my streak of curiosity in him, I see the charm of my flattery in his words. There is also the matter of his inaccessibility to me, the allure of the unattainable. His wife creates an enticing barrier.Or, perhaps, we both see the lover we took on in our youth, the man that shaped who we are and would rather take the scraps that we toss to each other than to leave behind the memory. But, as it often was with Isendur’s methods, we began a path towards destruction the longer we prowled around each other. Desperation motivated so much of what occurred in that tower. We tore down every wall between us. Found a place in each other to bury the seed of our desires for the future. We want so much. To teach Saturna and Isadore our skills. I raised the Rayfeathers on a pedestal, so that every Sin’dorei family who struggles to see a future needed only to look at them and know what it is that they can hope to achieve. A loving mother. A happy child. A dedicated, faithful husband. He kissed me. My dreams tasted like ash in my mouth. I whispered his wife’s name against his lips. He was a man destroyed by his own proclivity to gratification. He left. It made the job of diving into the Vaults that much more difficult. I stayed in the shadow, never wanting to reveal myself for long. I felt an obligation to care for Amalyn without dwelling long on the impulse. Looking deeper into it now, I suppose that my obsession with the perfection I’d seen in the Rayfeathers made each member of the family precious to me. I intimately felt the loss of my opportunity to better know Amalyn. She’s a beautiful woman, Amalyn Rayfeather. She cares for every member of Borrowed Time as if they were her own, adopting them all into the generosity of her heart. Isadore runs to her without hesitation whenever she sees her, treating her no differently than she would me. It’s painful to share my child with another woman, to see that she embodies Isadore’s idea of a mother and unaware of how I might feel about this shared title. But even in that insecurity that it raises, I still appreciate what Amalyn does for me. Arcturil’s reemergence became a day marked with panic. We grabbed our children like he’d come to collect them, almost suffocating them in our collective hold. She leaned against me, wholly trusting. Unexpectedly, she sparked the desire to care for her, to protect. It’s never quite left me. But now I’m relegated to do so from the shadows. I won’t escape what I am. The threads, from my daughter to my closest friend, all lead to Isendur's influence. If Fate exists, then I am near convinced that I am doomed to forever live in the Wolf's shadow. Sometimes I try to assure myself that if I am capable of guilt, perhaps I’m not as miserable of a wretch as I’ve assumed. Truthfully, I can’t be sure why I feel any at all beyond perhaps something second hand from Faelenor’s actions. Could I have warned Amalyn of what I knew? Was it my place to tell her that her husband lusted for me? To lust for him return, well. My thoughts are my own. It is in action that we derive culpability. So then, do I condemn myself for engaging in our wordplay? For meeting him in private to discuss our plans? Time and time again, I take a catalog of my interaction with him. I was the one that pulled away when he offered me his hand. I firmly reminded him of his place as a father and husband to someone else. I warned him that desire made fools of us all. Then what shall I make of this compulsion to mend her broken heart, to ask her to forgive me for crimes of the mind? She and Faelenor came to some agreement, if his apology implies anything. He saw the way I trailed after Amalyn in the Vaults, how I intercepted any danger that might have befallen her. Told me that he asked her not to blame me for what had occurred, but I had little hope. All I can do now is offer myself as bait to Arcturil, now that we have a means of capturing him. Maybe that will be penance enough.
  20. Sinlanna Arath'dorei: Shadowpriestess who wears leather and wields daggers. Chemist. Botanist. Currently hunting Arcturil. Being tempting out of habit. Where/Why to find her:She can be found relaxing in various arboretums, buying questionable ingredients in the wandering trade market. Very occasionally, she can be seen outside the gates of Undercity headed northeast. She'd be willing to chat if your character has an interest in working on experimental shadow techniques. She could always use an assistant/test subject. Or if you have decent knowledge in botany. Dora Arath'dorei: Fail hunter, tinkerer, and leader of the Legacy Corps. Jack of all trades, master of none. Borrowed Time's unofficial diplomat. Currently trying to get her shit together, getting ready to go on a hunt. Where/Why to find her: She can reliably be found in Orgrimmar chatting with the goblins in the engineering quarter. Come talk to her if you like to tinker, love ferocious beasts, or just want to go on an adventure! Djara no Mueh'zala: A servant to the loa Mueh'zala, she's something like a mortal reaper. She guides those spirits who cannot leave the mortal realm towards the path of their ancestors. She acts as a mender in Borrowed Time's infirmary. She is currently training to become a fiercer fighter. Is in mourning over the loss of her brother. Where/Why to find her: Warspear, training like a mo'fo. Can use a sparring partner or at least someone who respects her spirituality, damnit. Clemenci Emberflare: She attended the same convent as Sinlanna Arath'dorei, but stayed true to the path of the Light. She worked as a mender for the Scryers when she wasn't assisting in the cataloguing of information. She's not concerned with political divides, or really much of anything outside of her work. Where/Why to find her: Silvermoon. She is trying to reconstitute her idea of the Light, still suffering from the backlash of the Blood Knights.
  21. Amalyn Rayfeather
  22. On a roll today! Cobrak's Mood board, which had his input throughout the process!
  23. Not my usual thing, but...I was inspired to make a mood board for Djara.
  24. Oh wow! This is so exciting! I can't wait to see how this works out =)
  25. <p>Fae bae! <3</p>

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