Living in Silvermoon

[Lelea]

I am Lelea Sunfury, cousin to several of the Sunfury family, and diplomat/emmisary to the horde. I write this private journal in hopes to learn more about myself and our new horde brethren.

My mission at first had been to encounter the Horde and work with them, seeing how well our races have integrated into a cohesive force. But I have reached a stumbling block. It seems before I worry about the rest of the horde, there are issues here at home that need to be fixed first.

Silvermoon is in danger.

Rampant insanity, followers of the legion, and the fact that our race cannot even procreate so long as everyone seems to be having romantic relations with the same sex. All these things are going to lead to the downfall of this city.

While the leaders spend their time brainwashing the citizens with tales of the glory of the theiving Blood Knights, the Farstriders have become less than important in the eyes of the populace. This is wrong. My parents died defending this city from the scourge, and they would be sickened to see that the rangers are treated the way they are, while these so called "Knights" galavant around the city, spewing forth wretched garbage about their power, when in fact it is NOT their power at all. I am disgusted every time I see a blood knight.

Others in the city roam free, acting like animals, spouting gibberish instead of language and jumping around in circles like madmen. I try my best to ignore them or report them to the rangers, but these insane followers of the legion grow in power each day, and it seems that the city ignores them! Just like they ignore everything that isn't connected with their totalitarian rule.

The people themselves are horrible here. I have made a few friends since my arrival, but every day I am beset upon by women of all types trying to rob me of my purity. Women! Are there no men in this city? No. There are none. The orcs joke about the lack of males in Quel'thalas, and they are correct. I can count on one hand the amount of true men I have met, men that deserve respect. If they wish to engage in same sex relations, that's their business, but they will find themselves dying before they know it. We are no longer immortal, and without procreation we will finish the job of the scourge for them. I am disgusted by the lack of forethought in the citizens of this city.

Therefore, I will try to work with the rest of the horde as is my mission, but I will be watching Silvermoon. And I will try to set them on the path to success and purity. That is the only way to defeat the legion and the scourge, is by making ourselves stronger. The path we seem to be taking now will lead us to defeat and extinction.

Lelea Sunfury.

[Whispersoft]

((you win))

[Lelea]

((I'm hard core, babay!))

[Lelea]

Last evening I told my new friends Sariyanna and Zuzal about my thoughts regarding the state of Silvermoon. They seemed to agree with them in part, but before I could get to the section on the Blood Knights, we encountered a ranger affiliated with the Cartel Enforcers. Vathron was his name if I recall correctly. He informed us that we had been overheard by the people downstairs.

I'm such a fool. If I am to try to save this city, I cannot be loud about it, at least not in front of the wrong people. I half expected to be taken by Blood Knight thugs and arrested on the spot...perhaps even brainwashed! Luckily, I had to leave anyway. But I will be watching my back. Spies are everywhere, and information traders frequent the city like flies to a fresh carcass.

I went to the Ghostlands last night to aid a companion of Amariel's. Amariel is a priest in my order, and I guess you could call him my boss. I don't know what to think about him, sometimes, as he brings strange feelings into the pit of my stomach. He's so clean, spotless...perfect. Light help me I think I may be developing a crush on him. I curse my parents for not teaching me more about relationships before they died. And I never thought I would even have a chance at one, since my mother assured me that I was horribly ugly my whole life.

I'm too tall, and too curvy. My hips are wide and my breasts are large...I don't even look like a Sin'Dorei I fear other than the ears...just a skinny human. I must see about losing some weight. Perhaps maybe I'll force myself to vomit after each meal for a few days. No, thats just stupid. Stupid. My body needs to be healthy in order to do my job correctly. If I'm fat and ugly, I'm fat and ugly, and people will just have to deal with it. They call me gorgeous all the time, commenting on my hair or my body, but I see that they must be just humoring me. They have to be. Mother told me I was hideous.

But I'm getting off track, journal. I met the woman named Tamerah in the Ghostlands last night. She is a powerful warrior, but is currently training herself in the arts of fel magic. I don't neccessarily approve, but I can't deny that she and I made a good team. Perhaps I will train with her again soon. She was certainly nice, and proof once more that I generally enjoy orcs.

After my training, I met Amariel and Whispersoft. We talked with several people, one of which is the artist Evanthe Cindersong, and a troll named Jabiba. Skafloc had mentioned Jabiba to me, so I was happy to meet him.

Speaking of Skafloc, I almost forgot. I saw him bare chested yesterday. I think I turned bright red. I hope he didn't notice, but I was transfixed on his muscled frame and perfect chest. He is the perfect Farstrider, in my eyes, and much more of a man than those theiving Blood Knights. I wonder if he is single? No, I cannot even think that. Besides, I'm feeling a definate attraction to Amariel, and I think he may be feeling the same for me. Amariel says I remind him of his ex-fiance. And, I think he makes me look good too.

I'm rambling once again. I have so much to think about. I will write more when I get the chance, journal.

[Lelea]

*A gnomish Capture Device snapshot is wedged into the book at this point. On the back is written "Amariel and I" in Thalassian*

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[Lelea]

I can't believe it. They got me.

Let me back up.

Last night I was in Silvermoon, in the Royal Exchange, and I ran into some of my friends. Sariyanna, Vathron, Zuzal, and Thraxas. Thraxas is a Blood Knight, but after some talking I realized that he wasn't so bad, and he didn't believe that the knights should have the power they did either. I think I will find him to be an ally.

Zuzal gave us all these edible treats called Deviate Delights, and to my surprise they turned us all into hideous human pirates. I was horrified at first, but after some convincing I decided to let my hair down and have fun with it. We joked and danced for a bit, and it was the most fun I've had since the night we went to the Shiny Green Pig. I have such good friends.

Afterwards, we got out of our costumes and began discussing the state of Silvermoon. I was in mid-sentence when all of a sudden I blacked out! The next thing I know, I'm sitting on a bench, with all my friends gathered around blinking at me.

Apparently I had been zapped. Mind Controlled. They said that one moment I was fine, and the next I was telling them that Kael'Thas would lead us to victory and other such nonsense. I must have fought it off, but darnit, I am angry! This is insane, and the magistars need to let the people think what they wish.

Most people think Silvermoon is a place to frolic around half naked and talk freely. They are wrong. We are an oppressed people, and one day we need to rise up and destroy those who would seek to control us. I must gain more power so I can aid in this very needed revolution.

Yours,

Lelea Sunfury

[Lelea]

I am such a fool. An ugly, hideous fool. I should shave my head bald, paint my skin blue, and go live with the murlocs.

This afternoon was a disaster.

I met with Amariel, and he took me to Shattrath. It was going well...He introduced me to his Netherdrake friends, and said he would buy me a kitten, and I could not stop myself from swooning over him like a stupid girl from Silvermoon.

We ended up at the World's End Tavern in the Lower City. I had never been there before, and it wasn't the cleanest establishment, but I attempted to ignore the dust while I thought of a way to tell him I liked him. Like...As in, maybe I wanted to hold his hand, or cuddle, or maybe even kiss him. I've never had a boyfriend. It was impossible given the environment I was raised in. Damn my family. Damn them.

It started getting bad while we sat at the table. I was nervous enough, and he wasn't taking the hints. And then to make matters worse, I drank someone else's drink and there was a cigar floating in it. I thought I was going to die!

Then I finally told him I liked him. It was like a knife shoved in my breast. And the knife was twisted when he told me no...and ran away. I cried so hard, and I didn't even care who saw me. He must think I'm horrible...and ugly. That has to be it.

Minutes later a forsaken rogue appeared. She called herself Darkblade and had seen the whole thing. In her own way, she offered words of comfort, but even those words stung my broken heart. The only solace was a theory that perhaps he might not like women. But...That can't be...right?

She told me I should test him. See what he likes, and find out if this is true.

I want to curl up and die. I hope he doesn't hate me.

Lelea

[Lelea]

I feel better this morning. Last night I talked to a few people about this situation. Malethia, Elenor Whispersoft Nex'Cruor, and a few others. All of them said the same thing, in so many words. "He is probably homosexual, and you are beautiful."

Those words were not something I want to hear. First, I have a problem with homorsexual people. I see that they are a blight on our race, and their rampant disregard of procreation, coupled with all the crying and naked frolicing in Silvermoon isn't something condusive to the success of our damaged people.

But Malethia AND Whisper are both involved in homosexual relationships, and both of them have been nothing but good to me. Should I judge them along with the rest of their kind? Should I condemn them for what they do? This tears at me, because after hearing Malethia explain it, I don't feel as much anger toward it. Malethia said that love knows no gender, and I honestly can't come up with an argument for that. This is something I will have to think upon greatly.

If Amariel is in fact "gay" as they call it, it certainly would explain things. But I lack the knowledge or experience to be able to tell if someone is gay without just outright asking them. I wonder what kind of signs I should look for? If he is in fact gay, that would explain his running from me, as I probably made him feel just as uncomfortable as I myself felt. Poor Amariel. If he is gay, I need to hug him and tell him I'm sorry for putting him on the spot.

Upon reading my above paragraph, I see that perhaps Malethia was right. Perhaps my training and upbringing were wrong. Perhaps my views on my lack of beauty are just as wrong as my views on homosexuality if this is the case.

This is all so hard to take in.

Last night, just before Bed, Whisper broke me of a bad habit. We went to the beach to talk, and I totally lost it. Not only was I whining about Amariel, but I was freaking out about the sand getting on all my clothes. It got bad enough that I was noticabley fidgeting and complaining. I have a disorder, I know. I cannot for the life of me do anything that might make me look ugly, and dirt is one of those things.

Whisper got irritated I think, and pushed me into the ocean. I think her exact words were "Now you aren't dirty anymore."

I was mad at first, but the more I thought of it, the more I found myself laughing, until finally she and I were splashing each other with water! I haven't had that much fun since the night I dressed up as pirates with Sariyanna and my other friends.

So this morning I tried a new thing. After I woke up and had my bath, I stood naked in front of my full length mirror and looked at myself. I inspected myself for nearly an hour, assuring myself that I was beautiful. My body is symmetrical, with no abnormalities. I have a head of thick blonde hair that is shiny and pretty. I may be more curvy than most Sin'Dorei, but the curves are all in the right places. My skin is smooth, and with a hint of tan. My eyes are pretty. My lips are full and pretty. Turning around, I could see that my backside was perfect as well.

I am a good person. I am gorgeous. And darnit, people like me.

Those are the words I said to myself as I brushed my hair and got dressed. I looked into the mirror and said those words over and over again. It made a difference, I can tell. Self confidence is something I've been sorely lacking, and I think I need to continue on this path, and I will find love and success, and true happiness.

[Melchisedech]

((You know, most of the time, anti-homosexual attitudes just make me angry, but I have to say, from Lelea's perspective, it's not a rabid, right-wing, irrational attitude. It's based on the idea that her species is dying, and they NEED to procreate. Hmm... well done.))

[Lelea]

((You know, most of the time, anti-homosexual attitudes just make me angry, but I have to say, from Lelea's perspective, it's not a rabid, right-wing, irrational attitude. It's based on the idea that her species is dying, and they NEED to procreate. Hmm... well done.))

((Well, also remember that Lelea was raised hard core religious in near captivity too. Her views on lots of things are pretty skewed, which is why she sees everything as a "Sin" and also finds herself ugly. I'm really enjoying watching the character grow, and learning that some of her beliefs are wrong.

If you look at this latest entry, she even catches herself on this, and is starting to see that most of her upbringing was just as oppressive as the government of Silvermoon is to its people.

Plus, I thought it might be fun to have a character that doesn't walk around Silvermoon trying to sex up the ladies right off the bat.

Glad you are enjoying it, Mel, and I hope to entertain more in the future. And yes, I totally stole Stuart Smally from SNL as part of her inspiration. lol))

[Kiaransalius]

((right off the bat.))

((heh... do not be assimilated! Very good stuff though, I like how you are having her grow. It has been fun for me to have Kiara change like she has over the time, and I like what you are doing in your journal. classic SNL too... love it.))

[Malethia]

((To be fair, I never said he was gay. Would never use that as a rumor at all. My explanation was that you were too strong and hawt, and it scared the crap out of him.))

[Lelea]

((To be fair, I never said he was gay. Would never use that as a rumor at all. My explanation was that you were too strong and hawt, and it scared the crap out of him.))

((Right. But she had heard that from two other people prior to talking with you, so she kind of made that assumption. Either that, or my memory is going and I got confused. Oops. <3 Malethia))

[Bir]

(( *sits in the gay corner* :( Good read ;O ))

[Lelea]

((I forsee Bir making Lel cry if they ever meet. lol))

[Lelea]

Well, its mid-afternoon, and I still haven't heard from Amariel. I worry that I may have damaged our friendship, and I hope this isn't the case. I've also had some time to think about the situation a bit more.

What if he is gay? How would that affect me, other than the fact that my crush on him has been crushed? Boy that sounded stupid.

If he is this way, is that so bad? I mean, I will still be his friend. Nothing has changed in regards to the fact of how I feel. I still admire him, find him fun to be with, and I think he's handsome. But here is the hard part. How do I ask him? If he's not gay, and Darkblade and the rest were wrong, he may take it as an insult. He might even hate me! I don't want that at all. Perhaps I should just leave it alone and try to be his friend, and leave it at that.

Whispersoft took me on a tour of the Scarlet Monestary today. We went all over the place, looking at the zealots within. She saved my life more times than I can even count. But while watching them, I got to thinking. Are the followers of the Scarlet Crusade any different from the Mages who run Silvermoon? There are a few differences, yes, but the oppression is still there. The belief that you must think a certain way is still there.

Journal, I hope that Silvermoon does not get as bad as the humans with their crusades. I worry sometimes that it will. Now more than ever I need to be strong, and I need to be a champion for freedom. My world is changing each and every day, and I need to start drawing lines, and figuring out what I stand for.

Lelea

[Lelea]

I met a forsaken priest named Melchisedech last night, and he and I discussed the state of things with this city, with the Horde, and with The Grim. He asked me point blank what I thought of the Grim, and I was quite honest in my answer to him. I told him that to some ears the Grim was known as a band of killers who fought the enemies of the Horde with expert precision. Then I told him that to other ears, the Grim was full of whiners and Sin'dorei females who had orgies with each other and spent all day crying in the streets of Silvermoon.

He agreed, and the two of us talked about ways to fix the reputation of this order. We never came to an exact conclusion, but my opinion is this: The Grim needs to fix its own problems before taking on the Alliance. They need leadership that will put down an iron fist, while at the same time not being a dictatorship. Those involved should police themselves as well, and the weak and the crying should do so in private, because as it stands now the group has a horrible reputation among regular citizens of the Horde such as myself. I hinted at culling their numbers.

Interestingly enough, I ran into Jabiba a few hours after my talk with Father Melchisedech had ended. He had been kicked out of the Grim. This was presumably due to "lack of participation" during their attacks on Gronn Lords and other places. I found this silly as well, and tried to comfort Jabiba.

This made me think that perhaps the Grim had lost its way entirely. True, the Gronn and the Naga are threats in the long run, but the enemy of the Grim, according to their mandate, is the Alliance. In my eyes, as an outsider, the Alliance should be top priority on their list of things to destroy. It seems to me that most of the Grim ignore their mandate and have become glorified treasure seekers, ousting those who may not be able to aid them in gathering riches from the tombs and lairs of these powerful outland beings.

Tomb raiders and crybabies. This is not their mandate. Yet this is what they are. I should talk with Father Melchisedech further about this. Perhaps they need new leadership, or need to re-evaluate what their mission is. After seeing what I see every day from the Grim, I have to say I am not impressed with the direction they travel.

While talking to Jabiba last night, I ran into Izrail Nex'Cruor. Twice. I swear upon the graves of my parents that this man is insane, and should not be allowed to wander the streets of Silvermoon. He seems harmless, and mostly friendly, but he is also a warlock, and a powerful one at that. Who knows what will happen if he loses control one day. I will keep a close eye on him, as I also have decided to do with the mage Xenaken.

Powerful people need to be watched more than anyone. Because power corrupts.

Dear journal, if I ever become powerful like these people, serve as a reminder for me to keep my mind where my initial goals lie. Please help me to stay sane, clear headed, and friendly to my friends, yet harsh to my enemies.

Lelea

[Kiaransalius]

((sheesh 3-4 people having private affairs and its considered public orgies... gimmie a break :P No less alliance have been killed in the formation of those relationships! however, I do love your journal and I can't wait for kiara to meet lelea for some conversation.))

[Malethia]

((sheesh 3-4 people having private affairs and its considered public orgies... gimmie a break :P No less alliance have been killed in the formation of those relationships!

((In fact, I would say MORE Alliance die from those relationships, since every time Cess sends Malethia into an emo funk she goes into a PvP mode.))

[Melchisedech]

((Oh, please, Kia. For every Belf that has a private lesbian affair, there's three that have public drunken sex. ;) You're just the ones represented on the TNG. We all know there's more out there you just never see in-game.))

[Kiaransalius]

((Oh, please, Kia. For every Belf that has a private lesbian affair, there's three that have public drunken sex. ;) You're just the ones represented on the TNG. We all know there's more out there you just never see in-game.))

(( I don't look around for the public ones, but you are probably right. But out of the Grims, there are only a few with relationships going that I can tell, and I have never seen one beyond the occassional rp blurb here or there that is not private or semi-private. I still say its garbage to blame the "issues" we may or may not have on a handful of people rp'ing a relationship. Plus, Kia busts her ass to keep the Grim from going at each others throats! hehe. Regardless, I need to have Kia chat with Lelea and maybe mels, it seems like it would be quite interesting. :P Mels especially, since he probably has a bad image of her.)

[Melchisedech]

((Nah, Mel doesn't have a bad image of Kia. It's more OOC that I have that perception than IC. Mel just feels that ALL Blood Elves are engaging in too much sex, hetero- or homosexual, but he understands that it's a survival instinct for the species. Mel doesn't know Kia enough to have an opinion, period.

I'ma stop derailing poor Lelea's thread now. >.< ))

[Lelea]

((Re-derailing for one moment, then I'll try not to hijack my own thread.

Lelea's views in her journal aren't necessarily the right views. But she writes what she sees, and what she thinks. So take that for what its worth. And yes, I would love to meet any of you in game. :)
))

[Lelea]

The Nex'Cruor family.

Growing up in the "care" of my family left me with no friends. I had no source of entertainment, no one to play games with, and no interaction with anyone other than the staff of my family estate, who kept me "protected" from the rest of the world. But I did have books. I had a library of books, larger than even the library in the monastery of the Scarlet Crusade.

I kept up with outside occurances through the tomes and scrolls brought inside my home, learning about the Scourge, and about law and politics, and anything else I could find. I also kept up with the noble houses of Quel'thalas. The Nex'Cruor family was one of these houses.

According to my books, the family was quite old, and had holdings in many areas of industry. There were also rumors surrounding the house, talk of a small group of people working on scientific experiments that bent the laws of nature. As a girl trapped inside her home, I was fascinated by these reports. Now, as a free woman, I am horrified by them.

I believe the Nex'Cruor family to be yet another blight upon our fair city. Even though my best friend Elenor is a Nex'Cruor, her family terrifies me. I don't yet know the full extent of what they do, but those I have encountered other than her have been interesting, to say the least.

Whisper (as I call Elanor) is married to the head of the family. Clys Nex'Cruor. For some reason Clys Nex'Cruor is a student at Silvermoon University. Why such a woman would place herself under the rule of such an establishment is beyond me, but I will get to those thoughts in another entry. I truly believe there to be a conspiracy involved.

From what I hear (as I have not yet met the woman), Clys Nex'Cruor is a vile wicked spec of a woman, manipulating nature itself and making perversions that look, breathe, and talk like real living people. Rumor has it that they have stumbled upon a secret to immortality also, but I have no proof of such a thing.

If they have learned immortality, and figured out how to restore it, this just goes along with my other fears about returning Sin'Dorei society to a new golden age, and how it will never happen. With a family of immortals, why have children? Why not just prey on the weak? This bears watching.

Speaking of children, Clys has a "daughter" named Lovely, of all things. Supposedly, this Lovely is actually a creation of House Nex'Cruor, grown in some type of disgusting experiment and given artificial intelligence. It gets better. This "Daughter" is a teacher at the University. Teaching her mother? I don't think so. There is more to this than meets the eye.

Izrail Nex'Cruor is the son of Clys, although I have personally met him, and he doesn't look any more like a Nex'Cruor than I do. I'm not sure how he is connected, but I would not put it past these people to have fake family members intigrated into their organization.

Skafloc Ran'deau is related to the Nex'Cruor family also, but I have met the man and he seems more than sane. Even handsome and charismatic. I will have to watch him to make sure this isn't some type of act.

I must put off writing more thoughts for now, but I will write more when the chance arises. And I hope for all our sakes I am wrong about some of these things, or else I fear for my friend Whisper. I will pray that the light watches over her.

Lelea

[Lelea]

Silvermoon University.

My thoughts on this institution are mixed. On one hand, it accomplishes much of what I wish to do concerning diplomatic awareness and acceptance of our roles in the Horde. On the other, it could very well be a dangerous private army.

I often spend time in the Royal Exchange area of Silvermoon, conversing with and meeting new people. Since the university is located right there, I am almost always encountering students from it. My friend Sariyanna is a member, my cousin Sepia Sunfury attends, and even the Nex'Cruor family is involved.

The school historically had fallen into disrepair and had been abandoned. It wasn't til recently that a pair of sisters (Nicoleta and Meike Feiniel) purchased the school and reopened it for all the Horde.

In theory, this is a wonderful idea. It teaches racial integration, which is important for our survival as a race. Sin'Dorei are generally xenophobic by nature, and learning to live with the orcs (and even trolls) is something that will ensure the survival of our species. Because the harsh truth is that we need the horde more than the horde needs us.

However, the inclusion of so many private groups in the school causes me concern. The Nex'Cruor family has several "students" in the school, including the family matriarch. As I stated before, the fact that a matriach is in a school as a student confuses me, especially with her "daughter" teaching the classes. Something is wrong with that picture, and I think that something is deceptive corruption.

I wonder perhaps whether or not this Clys person isn't somehow running things to an extent at the school. She may be a student, but I have heard of prisons where the inmates run things unbeknownst to the guards that keep them locked up. If this is the case, perhaps the school needs to be investigated. Maybe I should ask Whisper about this before I jump to too many conclusions.

If in fact the school is a cover, we could all be in danger. There are several powerful people involved in both the faculty and the student body, and more join them every day. I only hope my fears are unfounded.

Lelea

[Lelea]

I may as well accept it. Everyone is gay.

Ok, I'm getting ahead of myself. Not everyone, but the homosexual or bisexual population of Silvermoon must be staggering indeed. Out of all the people I've met since coming here, I think I can safely say that at least 75&#37; or more have a partner of the same sex.

I was raised to believe that this was horrible, and that these people would destroy our society. I still have those thoughts, but at the same time none of these people have been mean to me. And Whispersoft, who I count as my best friend, is married to a woman.

I finally met with Amariel. Yes, he is gay as well. This makes me feel so much better, knowing this. It helps me to know that he doesn't find me repulsive, and the fact that he ran from me was based on the fact that he already had a lover. I hope I didn't freak him out too much.

Now I have to think on this. I still believe that this is bad for our people, but at the same time I'm becoming much more tolerant of it. I doubt it's anything I will ever try, but I cannot pass judgement on all my friends just based on what they do.

More on this as I come up with new thoughts. Its late and I'm sleepy.

Lelea

[Lelea]

Something is wrong with Whisper. She came to me last night, showing me her new "immortality" and scared me half to death. She says Clys made her this way. Something is terribly wrong. This isn't the Whisper I know. I must help her.

I convinced her to come home with me. I haven't returned to the mansion in quite some time, but it is secure and very large. It should be adequate protection in case things go wrong.

Light help me, she told me to run away from any Nex'Cruor. Doesn't she realize she's one? Doesn't she see I'm just as scared of her as I am the rest of them? But she is my best friend. I cannot run from her. I will watch over her as best I can, and try to solve the riddle of what the mad experiment did to her.

Lelea

[Falrei]

"I may as well accept it. Everyone is gay."

~ hahaha That's a cute observation, although I guess those I've spoken with don't fit into this category. However, Fal'Rei has a similar opinion of the city lately - just not based on gayness factor. :) Still, I'll have to keep an eye out for you. I think I've seen you around but you're usually deep in conversation already. ~

[Lelea]

I am going to burn for all eternity. But to save a life, it may be worth it.

[Lelea]

Whisper is either possessed by a being of evil, or her mind has been fractured into split personalities. I may not have time to write much today, journal, as I will be trying to keep her occupied while I find someone who can help her.

I myself am not nearly powerful enough. I need a priest of great power. Someone other than this Clys person, who did this to her in the first place. Perhaps Father Mel?

If her mind is split, Father Mel would be of great help. If this is possession, there is one I can find who is mentioned in the tomes of my parents. A young Sin'Dorei with a special gift.

I will be sending letters out today. To Melchisidech and to this "House Lok'Tharis."

Lelea

[Lelea]

Whisper came home only for a few minutes last night. I could not stop her as she left, and I don't know where she has gone.

Light preserve me, I hope the woman doesn't do anything crazy. I am going to go search for her now.

I heard from this Lok'Tharis person too. She says she knows Whisper, and that her family will attempt to discern what is wrong with her. I thank the light for people like Hellista Lok'Tharis, and I hope her power is great enough to do what is right.

Lelea

[Melchisedech]

((If you sent me an in-game mail, I never got it. :) Mel'd love to help, though.))

[Lelea]

((If you sent me an in-game mail, I never got it. :) Mel'd love to help, though.))

((I did! Darn your name for being so hard to spell!!! I wonder who got it?))

[Lelea]

I felt so bad today. I haven't seen a trace of Whispersoft. I think she may have gone back to that scary Nex'Cruor place. And All my other new friends seem to be gone too. Maybe they are sick? Or maybe they just don't like me? What if my hair looks stupid?

Today I felt a little better. My friend Hajaqar found me in Silvermoon and we talked for a while. He's a troll, and I think some kind of assassin. But he's a decent man, and I enjoy being around him. He and I attempted each other's accents. It was humorous.

I haven't seen Amariel in a few days. Since we had our talk, he has disappeared. I hope he's safe, because I really like him. Light please watch over him, even if he is a gay sinner that might be going to the nether. This is my prayer.

Lelea

[Lelea]

I almost forgot. I need to be on the lookout for these Cartel people. Haj said they had taken over the boats and were killing people.

Note to self: Bring silver on any trip.

[Acherontia]

((If you sent me an in-game mail, I never got it. :) Mel'd love to help, though.))

((Heh. Tell her what happened last time you messed around in someone's mind. ;) ))

[Lelea]

Its been a couple days since I last wrote, but I'm really excited, and must jot this down before I lose track.

Whispersoft and I ran into each other last night. She's doing better, and seems really happy now. I hope my help was part of the reason, but no matter what I'm glad she seems to be in better shape. She is my best friend, and I think she's going to buy me a cat!

But this part is really exciting. I met a man. A handsome, charismatic, generous, intelligent man, that likes women! Light be praised. His name is Falrei, and I ran into him today in Silvermoon. We talked for a bit, and he kissed my hand like a true gentleman. I was so nervous and excited, because I've never had a man's lips touch me before. I think I even stammered. I hope he doesn't think I'm an idiot.
Falrei wants me to research someone for him, since I have access to a rather large library, and I have agreed to do so. Saturna is her name. I will work on this post-haste.

He had to go for a few minutes, and while he was gone, I was beset upon by a large number of people. They overwhelmed me with questions and comments, and I thought I would pass out from listening to them all. Then he showed up, like in the fairy tails, and we escaped. We talked some more outside the city after he "rescued" me, and we have a date set up. I'm so excited!

Now....I just have to figure out how to do this date thing.

[Lelea]

What a disaster this day was.

I have much to learn about everything involving this insane world I've come into. Every time I see something that I think is the weirdest thing in the world, I see something even worse a few days later.

The master of my order sent a woman named Okhu to help me earlier today with some of my training. She was an orc through and through, but there was more to Okhu than meets the eye. She made me faint at least twice, and I have never seen anyone so crass and forward in my life. I won't even go into the physical aspects of this person, but needless to say I wasn't aware of the existence of people like her.

But as terrified as I am of Okhu, she saved my life a number of times, and at the end of the mission we shook hands as friends. I think she could be a good friend, and that I should not judge her based on anything other than her actions.

Today was also my date with Fal'rei. I met him in front of Silvermoon, where he was talking with a woman named Saturna. He introduced us, but she seemed a bit standoffish. She wouldn't even turn to face me. I sensed something amiss, and so while we walked, I asked him about her.

It seems Fal'rei was attracted to Saturna. Maybe still is. I don't know what to think at this point. But I'm getting ahead of myself.

He took me to a spot overlooking a large waterfall in Eversong, and we sat and talked for a while. I don't even remember what we spoke of...We basically told each other about ourselves I suppose. But he finally kissed me. I was so nervous. I think I did okay, but I'm sure there was a time or two when I did it wrong. I have no idea what I'm doing. I feel like such a fool.

We sat and talked for a while, and I cuddled with him while his strong arms held me tight. It was perfect. The sun was starting to set and the leaves looked like fire in the afternoon light. Then I heard the orc laugh.

Okhu.

Okhu showed herself to us. At first, I thought she might be laughing at me. But this wasn't the case. She had caught a spy. Saturna. The woman had been spying on us the whole time!!!

I was angered, needless to say. But then Fal'rei did something I never saw coming. He left to go after her. He got on his horse and left me there. My heart dropped into my stomach and I think I almost threw up. How could he do that? We had just kissed.

I began to cry, and Okhu comforted me. He never did come back. Okhu made me laugh a few times, as a good friend does. She tried to cheer me up, she honestly did. But I still feel horrible. I feel shame, I feel foolish. I've never been so embarassed in my life. I thought he was a gentleman.

I don't know what to do.

I was going to research this Saturna woman for him. He asked me to find information on her. Now I don't know if I even care. If I do research her, perhaps I will just keep the information for myself.

I just want to take a hot bath, and sink under the water, and stay there. Light take me into your warm embrace.

((There are teardrops on this page))

[Falrei]

~ Well that's only slightly more depressing than the remainder of Fal's day went! :( I swear he curses anyone he gets even somewhat acquainted with. *Posted his own rambling version of events too!* ~

[Lelea]

Yesterday I had a long talk with Saturna. She helped me to see things in a different way, and to look at myself in a whole new light. I think I am stronger for this, and I owe the woman my gratitude. I still don't know much about her, but it is obvious she wants it that way. Nevertheless, her actions speak louder than words, and so I consider her a friend.

The Alliance attacked Silvermoon last night. I've never seen so many Kal'Dorei hunters in all my life. Luckily, they were driven away by the stronger members of the city. It was a bloodbath. I hid like a coward during this, and revived members of the horde afterwards. Surprisingly there weren't that many casualties on our side.

Afterwards I met with Fal'Rei again. We had a talk, and decided to be friends. I forgave him for what he did to me. But it was uncomfortable after that. I was still sad and hurt, and I could tell he felt the same way. I drowned my sorrows in some Cherry Grog, and now I have a horrible headache.

Lelea

[Roth'rili]

((Ok I'm getting on those damn innkeepers they were supose to give herbs to help with that! *chuckles*))

[Lelea]

*This page of the book has slight water damage and the ink is smeared. The print is still legible*

I don't know what is going on lately, or if I am doing things the right way, or the wrong way.

My whole life was a lie, carefully crafted by my parents to keep me "Safe" from the outside world. I only recently discovered this, and escaped so that I might live among others. But was this a bad thing? Were my parents at least right?

I brought this up yesterday to Okhu, and to my surprise Okhu seems to think that my parents had my best interests in mind. Yes, I was a prisoner, but at the same time I never had to deal with the problems I deal with now. Yes, my mother told me I was ugly, but she did it so I would not want to go out into the world. She did it so I would remain safe in their care, safe while the world fornicated its way into oblivion, finishing off the job that the Scourge didn't. Maybe Mother did love me after all.

Last night was insane. I did everything wrong. I'm such an idiot with a big mouth.

I met a man named Sethinus yesterday, who I discovered was romantically involved with Whisper. I had reminded her that she was married to Clys, but the situation was avoided. And Clys scares me anyway. Whisper, Seth, and I had a few talks yesterday, and as usual they were both nice to me. Whisper even bought me a kitten! I was happy, even though I didn't understand how their relationship worked.

Then Last evening, I went to the inn to have some wine, and I ran into Skafloc Ran'Deau. Skafloc is the ranger I have a slight crush on, and he was talking with a troll named Xaraphyne. Both of them seemed nice, until Sethinus walked in. Then I messed up. I introduced him as Whisper's boyfriend.

If only I had Janith's power to roll back things and do them over again. I wish to the light I had kept my mouth shut.

Skafloc, it turns out, is a relation to Clys, her closest living blood relative or something. He began to talk about inheritance and adultry, and was very mean to Seth. Then I come to find out they are sleeping with this Hellista woman too.

I was shocked, but at the same time I was angered that Skafloc was verbally attacking Sethinus the way he was. None of this is my place to judge. While I do find it to be a sin, I despise violence, and this is where it was heading.

It was hard, but I managed to get Seth out of there. Then to my surprise, Skafloc followed us to continue his berating. This infuriated me. Is the Baron not aware of the proper code of conduct and decency? I don't care what Seth had done, but Skafloc was in very real danger of being shot by one of the Arcane Protectors. They don't allow violence in there city. Izrail showed up as well, and seemed to be trying to calm the situation too.

I know it must have seemed to Skafloc like I was taking sides, but the truth of the matter is that Whisper is my best friend, and I wanted to just get out of there. I don't approve of anyone sleeping around on anyone, but at the same time I also don't approve of the homosexual nature of the Marraige between Clys and Whisper to begin with. But who am I to judge? No one. I am a healer and a diplomat, and thats what I attempted to do last night.

Sethinus and I finally made our way out of Silvermoon. We went to Brill to have a drink, to calm our nerves, but it turns out they don't serve it there. Not wanting to go back to Silvermoon, Sethinus and I took the zeppelin to Grom Gol in Stranglethorn Vale. We had hoped to take a wind rider from there to Booty Bay, but I had never been to either place. So we had to swim and travel on the sandy beaches.

By the time we got to Booty Bay, I was in horrible shape. I was soaked to the bone, and was upset because I was covered in sand.

Seth doesn't know how hard it is to deal with my disorder. He doesn't know the fear I have when I see dirt on my clothes or feel sand in my hair. I am forced to clean myself immediately, and Seth wouldn't let me. He said it was something I would have to learn to deal with. I tried to walk away from him in the tavern, and he grabbed my wrist and took me to a table with a cut-throat, forcing me into the chair next to the man. I was furious. I am a Lady of Quel'Thalas, and I do not like to be treated that way, even if he thinks its for my best interests.

Then to make things worse, Seth tells me he has to go talk to Whisper. He used his hearthstone and left me there. Once again, a man leaving me to talk to another woman. I thought I was going to die.

I was soaking wet, filthy, and by this point a bit drunk. I was also in a seedy bar in the middle of the largest jungle on Azeroth, surrounded by vermin and theives. And I was sitting at the table with a Sin'Dorei who looked just as rough as the rest of them.

The man wore the taberd of the Cartel Enforcers, and had a pet Dragonhawk by his side. He was a bit dirty and rugged in appearance, with a large scar that roped down the side of his face. I was scared at first. Very scared. I am a spoiled rich noble from Quel'thalas. I had no business being in a place like this. But the man comforted me.

His name was Selash. He was an ex-Farstrider, and now a bounty hunter, and he wasn't too pleased with the way Sethinus had just treated me. He told me such, and could tell I was near a breaking point. He then offered to help me.

I asked Selash about the Cartel. He didn't lie to me about what they were, or what they did, and he wasn't ashamed of their activities. He had honor about it. And he also offered to help me.

I paid Selash, even though he didn't ask for any money, and he escorted me to a lake in the center of the jungle. He turned around like a true gentleman as I disrobed, and made sure not to try and gaze upon me as I bathed. I think perhaps he may have seen me a little when the giant Crocolisk attacked me, but he was so fast, and so powerful, that he wrestled the beast, catching it before it could even snap at me. I was amazed.

My amazement turned to irritation when not seconds after he killed the crocolisk, the sky opened and began dumping hard rain on the jungles. This messed things up for me, because I had been trying to get clean, and now my clothes were laying in a pile of mud and crocolisk blood, and I was trapped naked in the lake.

Bless his soul, Selash rescued me. He gave me his cloak, wrapping me in it and gathering my clothes, and we went back to Grom'Gol. There was a small inn there, and he sat me down on a mat so that I could dry off as he washed and cleaned my clothes.

We then talked for what seemed like forever. He has an interesting story, which I will not write here lest this journal ever fall into the wrong hands. But I can look at Selash and see how people become products of their environment. He is a decent man, an honest man, and he wrestled a crocolisk to protect me.

And most importantly...He didn't leave me.

I have never seen such a true hero in my life. If I can put up with the area, and learn to curb my phobia of germs and dirt, I will have to try and see him more often.

I still have much to think about. The business with Skafloc and Whisper is heavy on my mind. I don't know what to make of Sethinus. And Selash is on my mind too. He made me totally forget about Fal'Rei.

Lelea

[Darkweald]

(( does this make you Sue Charlton (http://www.imdb.com/character/ch0008824/)? perhaps you need to change your 'acted by' to Linda Kozlowski! /wink ))

[Lelea]

(( does this make you Sue Charlton (http://www.imdb.com/character/ch0008824/)? perhaps you need to change your 'acted by' to Linda Kozlowski! /wink ))

((ROFL now if I see Selash again I'm totally picturing an Aussie accent.))

[Lelea]

Selash Gustblade.

I want to write this name a million times in this book, and stare at it forever. The man is amazing, and I am like a stupid little girl when he is around. I know it sounds weird, but these are my feelings.

We are total opposites. I am the spoiled and sheltered aristocrat, while he is the scarred and rugged woodsman, but light bless me I cannot get away from my feelings. I am totally enamored by him, and he knows it.

Let me back up.

Yesterday, I awoke in Grom'Gol, where he had watched over me as I slept. There were Alliance attacking, of course, so I fled and went to Booty Bay. I encountered several people there, and made a few new friends, and Cascadia even made me a stunningly beautiful white dress. I put it on immediately, tossing away my ratty old clothes. Cascadia is good to me, and I think she is going to be a good friend.

Selash showed up. He had been hunting for the Cartel, and when I saw him I couldn't help but swoon. He has agreed to help me get over my fear of germs, dirt, and insects, and I have placed myself in his care.

We all talked for quite a while, and I couldn't help myself. Every time he put his arm around me, or pulled me closer to him by my waist, my heart fluttered. I kissed his cheek several times, as it just felt natural. He and I blushed and flirted brazenly, and this is something I never would have done before.

Booty Bay is starting to feel comfortable to me. It makes me forget about Silvermoon. Here, I am a princess, to be protected, and he is my charming knight.

I met several of the Cartel last night, and Sowell Spiritrock himself showed up after a human mage gave us trouble. I do hope they are able to destroy that mage and keep them from ever coming back. I may not agree with everything the Cartel does, but I do have to say they take care of their own, and I respect them. People can say what they want, but I'm beginning to discover that rules in Silvermoon don't apply out here in the jungle.

The day went well. Aside from our problems with the human, it was great. Selash is letting me stay in his room in the Salty Sailor Inn, and its a quaint little place. And last night, as we got ready for bed, he kissed me. A real kiss. The kind that made me melt into his arms and savor his lips like a fine wine. From there, he took me into his bed, and was a true gentleman. He knows of my thoughts, and respected them, doing nothing but holding me in his strong arms as we fell asleep.

My gear should be in Booty Bay today. I will be staying here for some time.

Lelea

*There are doodles of hearts at the bottom of this page*

[Cascadia]

(( Oh look, it's my twin from the past! I've skimmed through all of this, It was a good read. I will have to fully divulge myself sometimelater. ))

[Sethinus]

(( Hearthing out of the Booty Bay Inn was the best thing Seth could have done for Lelea, haha. How unexpected! ))

[Lelea]

I haven't written in a couple of days. Things have been moving in strange directions, and I've found it hard to concentrate.

Selash and I are together now. I caught myself using the "boyfriend" word the other day, and he seemed happy. I was so nervous. Who would have ever thought that a spoiled noble like me would be living in the jungle with a rugged woodsman like Selash. We are total opposites, but I think thats one of the things that makes it work.

We are also taking it slow. Selash and I both have issues with moving too fast, although there have been times I've gotten carried away. The man is such a good person.

Yesterday something bizaare happened, and I am reluctant to write about it. I don't want anyone finding this book and knowing the business of myself and others...But I somehow got tainted with fel energy yesterday afternoon. At least I think thats what it is.

I don't know how it happened, but it corrupted me down to my heart, making me think very bad thoughts, and making me do bad things. I even made out with a female orcess due to this, and barely made it without losing my dress or my purity. I shall have to keep a close eye on my surroundings to make sure this doesn't happen again. I wonder if the orcess herself had been tainted also? Selash is looking into this, and I am glad I told him about it. If anyone can solve this mystery it is he.

I spent the night in Ratchet last night. It is so different from Silvermoon. I'm becoming a bit more accustomed to the area, and to the lack of cleanliness...and the lack of clothing. Selash likes it when I show my skin, and I will do what I can to please him, short of running around naked of course. He makes me realize that I am pretty after all. I have fallen so hard for him. I will give myself to him willingly very soon.

Lelea

[Lelea]

I am finally a woman now. Selash was perfect. I have nothing more to say on the subject.

The rest of the night was eventful. We met with Cascadia and discussed the fel taint that had affected me. She has theories and we will test them today. While in Ratchet, we were beset upon by Alliance. They acted like animals. We managed to take a few of them down, but then they brought in their more powerful members. All seemed lost until a Blood Knight named Lovely Bloodstorm came to our rescue. The bodies of our enemies still litter the grounds, as she did not allow them to gather themselves or run away. I was very thankful.

Stupid Alliance.

Today will be eventful.

Lelea

[Whispersoft]

((Thats.... it? We want juicy details :P))

[Lelea]

((This page is written in a different handwriting, recognized as a goblin style))

I am having this page written, as I cannot write it myself. Yesterday was horrible.

I had been in Booty Bay talking with Cascadia and a few others about my recent exposure to fel energy, and what it had done to me. We discovered many things that were buried in my soul, embarassing things, and I was feeling quite bad about the prospects of me living a normal life. It was decided that we would discuss these things over dinner in Ratchet.

I was so stupid. Why did I think for a moment that I would be safe? Why did it not occur to me to make Selash wait for me? Stupid stupid stupid!

I got on the boat from Booty Bay to Ratchet. Humans were on the boat. Why did I not turn around right then and there? They were obviously powerful rogues. Three of them. I remember their leering faces, looking at me like I was a piece of meat. Yet for some stupid reason I figured my faith would protect me.

As soon as we set sail, they began flirting with me, pressing themselves to me and jeering. I tried to keep away from them, but this seemed to make them angry. They began to howl in their common tongue, and grabbed me, laughing as they threw me to the deck of the ship. Two of them held me down and held my head still while the third pulled a pouch from his armor and emptied some type of powder into my eyes.

I don't know why they didn't kill me right then and there. They left me alone with the burning in my eyes. I still don't know how I made it off the ship when we docked in Ratchet.

I had some people look at me. Selash was so angry. This was a type of blinding powder used by more powerful rogues, and they held my eyes open as they poured it into them. If my vision comes back it will be at least a few days. I hate humans so much. Light protect me I hate them.

[Lelea]

((Because when you are chain-blinded by three rogues on the boat, the only good solution is to RP it!!!))

[Lelea]

((This page is covered in stains and scrawls of ink, none of which is legible. There are stabbings in the paper which go through to the next few pages. In the middle of the page is a rudimentary exclamation point scrawled over top of everything))

[Lelea]

((This page is written in the same goblin handwriting style as before))

I still can't see. My vision seems to be trying to improve though, as I am now seeing vague impressions of shadows. Its been almost three days, and I am starting to worry. If I am permanently blinded I don't know what I will do.

Selash cares for me, but sometimes I think I am a burdon to him. I am totally helpless this way. He cares for me, and loves me, but at the same time I don't want to be just an object of love. I want to help him, and help others. I hope my vision clears soon.

I was also exposed to fel energies again. Selash thinks it may be caused by the orc known as Tamora, but I assured him that was not the case. She is a warrior, not a warlock. Yet still, for the second time in a week I was enthralled by her. If not for luck, I may have done something I regretted later. These energies bring out a decadent side in me, and being blind I can only rely on touch. I wonder if I shouldn't be locked up until I restore my sight.

Lelea

[Malanori]

((Awe...I wish Mally could have an ale with Lelea. I like her. Shes RP-Interesting. /cry))

[Lelea]

((<3 Malanori!))

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((This page is written in Lelea's handwriting, but it is horrible, almost to the point of being completely illegible))

I am getting better. But my sight issues seem to have stagnated. I can now see shapes and colors, but everything is so blurry I can't make out any features. I don't know if the writing in this journal will be readable either. But I am trying.

I have a few options. My sight will not get better than this, as the damage to my eyes was too severe. But I met some people last night who gave me ideas.

As a priest, I can look into the minds of others, and can see what they see. This vision is crystal clear. My pet kitten, Love, is going to be a test subject to see if I can alter my powers enough to see through the eyes of animals. If I can do this, it will help immensely. I am also looking into getting a seeing eye worg. But I must gain more power to be able to do that. Worgs are only found in one place, and I would be killed going anywhere near there.

Selash was good to me last night. He bought me a new dress, and an expensive one at that. He is so good to me. Of course, the dress didn't stay on very long. He enjoys my body too much for that. And I enjoy his protective arms around me.

Janith offered to help me with my eyes by rolling them back. She has a unique talent, but with the progress I have made, she might blind me worse than I already am if this happens, and she didn't want to take the chance. I adore Janith, and find her to be a good friend.

Lelea

[Melchisedech]

((Dammit, I wish Mel had ever received Lelea's in-game mail! If they could communicate he could suggest his own terrible solution to her blindness!))

[Lelea]

((<3 Mel. I wish we had been able to talk more. Lelea really enjoyed you!))

[Lelea]

((More sloppy handwriting, indicating that Lelea could not see the page she was writing on))

I am so embarrassed. Last night I walked right into the podium that the auctioneers stand on in Silvermoon, hitting my head and laying myself out right in front of people. They must think I'm retarded. And it hurt, too.

Selash had a Cartel meeting, and so I made my way to the Undercity to participate in the Festival of Love. I had never seen anything like this before. Being raised in a virtual prison meant that holidays were something I never got to do, and so this was quite interesting.

Apparently, during this festival, you give these "love tokens" to the disgusting abominations guarding the Undercity. Then they choose whether or not they like you, and they have a bag of goodies that they give you stuff from. I got some rockets, and a pie, and some papers which I can't see due to my stupid eyesight. I imagine the papers probably look as bad as my current handwriting in this journal. I don't expect abominations to have good penmanship.

I also got a new dress. I can tell that it's blue in color, and when I put it on I could feel a huge draft. It doesn't cover much at all, and I imagine Selash will enjoy it quite a bit, assuming he even lets me keep it on for long. All in all, I had fun, and everyone else seemed to be having fun as well. Well, mostly. I saw a fight break out between some Blood Knight and the warlock Hellista. She was pretty scary. I stepped away, hoping not to get in the middle of it.

Last night, Selash was still in his meeting, so I walked Silvermoon a bit. I saw Izrail and Visant, and also Naheal. We small talked a bit, but all in all I was a bit lonely. I wore the dress, but the streets were pretty much empty. I guess everyone was talking to the Undercity guards.

I hope today will be better. I have some mental activities I wish to try in an effort to deal with my blindness...My poor eyesight. I hate writing "blindness" when I can still see shapes, but thats what it is I guess. Stupid humans.

Lelea

[Lelea]

((More god-awful handwriting))

Selash and I ran into Bir last night. It did not go well.

Bir is a good friend of mine. He was one of the first people I met when I escaped the prison of my home, and has always treated me with respect, even though I know he doesn't respect me because of my noble station. As crazy as he seems, I get Bir. I understand what he is, and why he acts the way he acts. He is a real person, with flaws like all the rest of us, and he doesn't care to hide them. I respect him more than many people I have ever encountered.

But that doesn't change the fact that he was mean to Selash. He called him fake, and said that once he was through with me, he would abandon me. Just like Fal'Rei did.

I can't help but feel doubt, even though I argued against it. Selash argued with him too, and comforted me, but the seed has been planted, and now I am watching. I don't want to be hurt again. Even as Selash took me last night I could not help but think of Bir's words. What if Selash becomes irritated at my handicap? What if my weakness drives him into the arms of another woman?

I don't know what to think.

As for my blindness, I have a meeting set up with Father Melchisedech. I am hoping he will be able to restore my sight, and he seems to have something in mind. Some unorthadox method. I will do what he asks, and I have faith in the light that he will be able to help me. I do want to see again. I do not want to be helpless...useless...

Lelea

[Lelea]

((More horrible handwriting))

Father Mel is going to make me new eyes. He has some experiments to do first, and tests to run, but if things work out I should be able to see perfectly. I only hope the price is worth it. I feel really bad for agreeing to it, knowing that people will die. But they are Kal'dorei warriors anyway...and humans. Captured in battle, violent....Yes, they deserve to die. I only hope he makes it quick.

And I hope I don't lose my soul for this.

I didn't see Selash again. I hope he is well...and...I hope Bir was wrong.

[Malanori]

((Boo! Loushus tried that. Mally cut off his hand. :D let me see those pretty hands Lelea...))

[Lelea]

I CAN SEE!

Father Melchisedech performed the surgery last night in the Undercity. And now my sight is even better than it was before my attack. I'm still in a bit of pain, but some healing has helped it quite a bit.

The first thing I did was go to Eversong Woods. I looked at everything there last night, and spent so much time gazing upon nature that I forgot to even contact Selash or the others to let them know my sight had been returned.

I owe Father Mel so much. I have offered my services to him. Anything he requires. He is such a good man. And I think if I had hugged him any tighter I'd have broken his ribs.

The eyes themselves don't look that different from my old eyes. They appear to be more glassy looking, I guess because they are made of metal, but other than that I still appear normal. And Father Mel assured me that the fel iron he used to make them has been purified. So my troubles with Fel Energy won't be a problem.

I am so happy right now, I'm going to stop writing and go dancing.

Lelea

[Melchisedech]

((*Evil cackle*))

[Malanori]

((Interesting story Lelea...I got a shot of hot oil in my eye tonight and when I went to the ER the Doctor I got was Dr. Gibson. My first thought was "Mel...." ))

[Lelea]

I slept a good portion of the day yesterday. The pain is almost totally gone now, and my sight is incredible. I think I can even see further than I did before. Clearer. The colors on everything are so vibrant...the detail so beautiful in every little thing that came into my field of vision.

I felt free. No longer confined by a crippled body...a helpless body. Father Melchisedech has given me freedom. Rescued me just as Selash saved me in the jungle those weeks ago. I should seek him out, give him thanks...something to show my appreciation for what he has done.

Selash found me walking through Silvermoon last night. Such a rugged and handsome man. He was concerned, I could tell. He asked a few questions, and I suspect he was a bit jealous at what Father Mel had done for me. I think he wants to meet him.

Of course, he and I both wanted to celebrate. He took me in the inn and made love to me. Except...it wasn't love. It was more carnal than that. I bit him, hard enough to draw blood. It tasted so warm on my tongue. So full of life. The blood made me find release even as his body did. I was like an animal, so full of rage and power. The euphoria still continues, even now...hours after we stopped.

Something is strange. I feel different. And I love it.

[Villayna]

((someday you are going to make a sweet and innocent character that stays that way. I dare you. <3 ))

[Skafloc]

((someday you are going to make a sweet and innocent character that stays that way. I dare you. <3 ))

(( Yeah and someday our sun will go nova. ))

[Melchisedech]

((The hell is the fun in that?))

[Hellista]

((Blame it on Melchisedech. Its all his fault!))

[Saphiara]

((Sigh...I can only level so fast. Can't you people hold these problems off a month or so until I can swoop in and save you all?))

[Melchisedech]

((What makes you think she wants to be saved? MUAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!))

[Evanthe]

((someday you are going to make a sweet and innocent character that stays that way. I dare you. <3 ))

[I triple-dog dare you. So THERE!

Also... Eva should meet new-and-improved Lelea]

[Hellista]

[I triple-dog dare you. So THERE!

Also... Eva should meet new-and-improved Lelea]

((She's not totally evil yet. She doesn't even know the fel energy in her new eyes is corrupting her. But when she does, she's gonna Party like its 1999 babay))

[Lelea]

I ran into Beutha again yesterday. She is a dear friend of mine, and one of the first people I met after I escaped my home. And apparently, she used to be a prostitute. Listening to her talk about it was interesting, as my experiences growing up were on the totally opposite end of the spectrum.

She's not like most of the Sin'Dorei I run across though. She sticks to the opposite gender, and she seems to like it. We talked for a bit, and endured some cat calls from a tauren who was nearby. He turned out to be friendly though, and I'm not worried about him.

As she was leaving, she grabbed me and kissed me really hard, right on the mouth. I'm still not sure what to make about that. She said it was "So I'd know what it felt like" or something, and then laughed as she walked away.

I can't help but think about those things sometimes. Curiosity is a strong thing. But I have Selash, and he loves me. I should never think of anything but him.

Selash was asking about Father Melchisedech. I am convinced he thinks something is bad, and he was badgering me with questions about my new eyes. I assured him that the fel iron used to make them had been purified. Father Mel would not lie to me. He's a saint AND my savior. I hope Selash doesn't anger him by trying to protect me.

Lelea