Blue Velvet Diary

[Malorii]

A new thought keeping book sent to me by the dear brother. I had forgot i had this, why i kept this as a memento i will never know. He looked almost happy as i held his head underwater. Little bubbles slithering out little lips.

I planted the apple Sabby gave me in the backyard of the estate right next to the broken swing. I had to save up and have soil from mulgore shipped in. Most plants won't grow on cursed soil so i had to improvise. It sprouted today I saw green for the first time. It made me feel weird like when i saw Marie and her tree sprout for the first time. But that is a dangerous thought i shouldn't think it less It gets picked up. It's so hard getting told what to think and what not to think. I am loyal yes? I serve my master and my heirs well so it doesn't hurt to have thoughts of the stories Marie tells me is it?

the doctor tells me it is wrong, but Marie teaches me wounderful little songs she taught me an old northern sailors song. I know free thoughts are dangerous things, but could one little stray thought really hurt anything?

On the floating, shapeless oceans
I did all my best to smile
til your singing eyes and fingers
drew me loving into your eyes.

And you sang "Sail to me, sail to me;
Let me enfold you."

Here I am, here I am waiting to hold you.
Did I dream you dreamed about me?
Were you here when I was full sail?

Now my foolish boat is leaning, broken love lost on your rocks.
For you sang, "Touch me not, touch me not, come back tomorrow."
Oh my heart, oh my heart shies from the sorrow.
I'm as puzzled as a newborn child.
I'm as riddled as the tide.
Should I stand amid the breakers?
Or shall I lie with death my bride?

Hear me sing: "Swim to me, swim to me, let me enfold you."
"Here I am. Here I am, waiting to hold you."

I sang it today in undercity in the sewers between undercity, I sang as loud as i could i sang for the abominations. I watched the a forsaken fish on the bridge below me. I do not think he saw me.


(i've been on an old music kick lately i found this record of this mortal coil Song to the siren, i've had them stuck in my head and rock lobster by the b-52s running around in my brain pan all damn day ))

[Malorii]

The medicine the doctor had left for me isn't working as well anymore, I'm coughing now it hurts. Nothing hurts so why does this hurt, why do i hold my chest in pain when the coughs seize me. Perhaps it is the changing seasons i have always had a bit of an allergy nothing to be concerned about yet.
Skafloc looks at me funny when I cough, I can not sing for him anymore.

I can not sing for the shadows anymore. I can not sing in sewers anymore without coughing lasts nights song i think was the last. I slept on khaells bed last night while he was away I do not care about the nightmares anymore i wish they would just be over. Maybe if i slept longer. I took four dreamless sleep potions and i can't fall asleep so i think i'll take some more.

[Malorii]

"It was a simple experiment the doctor mailed me these..strange beans. I've never smelled anything like these before, but he told me i was to boil water and then place the beans in this .. weird contraption he sent me as well. He called it a "Percolation-matrix.""

There is a crude drawing of the perculationmatrix here.

"So I did, I waited 15 minutes and filled one hundred little spill proof mugs with the hot black liquid. In his letter he stressed for me to try it out on the populace of silvermoon and let him know if the effects where desirable or not. So so so I put the mugs in my bag and decided to go to silvermoon right then, why should the doctor have to wait? He never did like elves sin'dorei or Kal'dorei. Mainly he hates anything that breathes.. Damn breathers even I've caught myself saying that. It is a shame that most of my once kin will never know the doctors gifts and be made well. I asked skafloc if i could bring his .. daughter.. to the doctor to be made well but he told me no. "

There appears to be large brownish water stains over most of the next scribbles.

"It was just one sip! Now i can't find my pants or any of my clothing! I managed to find my dagger and my sword ... my bracers. But i can't find my pants! I remember blacking out and then waking in the middle of silvermoon in between nasuj,m evanthe and qabian. there was a troll there too jabiddajabddaaa? can't pr ounce troll names and a mistress from the grim.
Was i drugged? I would have been able to stop the assault quickly i and vanish if that was the case. Nasuj said i looked cold, how someone can "look cold." is way beyond me.
I can see why he is the leader of melon Danish now. He's very helpful, he tried to help me find my pants!

I can't leave silvermoon till i find my pants.. Fel must find pants.. I would have remembered taking them off!

[Skafloc]

(( Malorii + Espresso = Bad Idea... ))

[Feleena]

((At one point last night, Evanthe pointed at Mal, looked at Feleena, and said "Don't EVER drink anything she gives you." lol))

[Malorii]

(( ahaha i laughed so hard. The funnest part was inviteing people into group hurling coffe at them then turning them into things with the halloween wands. You guys are awsome thank you so much for putting up with my bought of Ic insanity.

[Evanthe]

[That was a blast. Although I should send you the dry cleaning bill for Eva's coffee-drenched robe. ;) ]

[Malorii]

(( you should! although i think Leibowitz is going to have to end up paying for it in the long run since it was kinda his fault.. *nervous look*(

[Qabian]

((Aww, she can't remember the part where I'm a god and the brain leeches are all there to build my army to do my bidding? Curses! I could've used an army. Haha! I think that was the first bit of non-creepy fun that didn't involve murdering anyone that Serious Business Q has had all year.))

[Malorii]

(( you know how way back when and you where really young? and you suppressed all those nasty little memories of your uncle bad touch? ... of course you dont! isn't bad memory suppression fun! besides if mal DID remmber being a caffinated buzzing leper gnome who was preechig the gospel of Q then she would have to kill herself XD ))

[Qabian]

((Boo, everyone's a critic. Evanthe's right. We should've kept her that way.))

[Malorii]

((well there is a coffe vendor that roams around shatt .. i had bought two stacks of the stuff :D ))

[Malorii]

I decided to kidnap Qabian today. If anyone can help me find my pants i'm sure Qabian will. I don't remember much about the last few days but i remember him saying something " army build " or something who the hell knows.. My thoughts have been so scrambled lately. He played dumb like he didn't know what i was talking about. I was going to belive him and leave him be but he said to me "Even if i had your pants what makes you think i'd give them back?"

Guilt right there.. maybe .. mmmyes

So i posioned him Khaell, kiki and i took him to a secret location. I can't WAIT to see the look on his face when he wakes up. The smell of his mana is driving me crazy I can feel the blue hunger in the back of my head screaming. I will remain calm and level headed for this questions.. but a little taste wont hurt anything right?

[Malorii]

He wasn't mad.. I think he kinda liked being drugged..
Ave Maria! Jungfrau mild,

Ican taste his mana on the back of my mouth, Like a lingering chill. It tastes like an unquenched thirst.
Erhöre einer Jungfrau Flehen,us diesem Felsen starr und wild ..oll mein Gebet zu dir hinwehen.
It can only be put out with flame.

Wir schlafen sicher bis zum Morgen,
Ob Menschen noch so grausam sind.

He tastes like.. Getting away with something you're not supposed to but you do anyway.

He tastes like Irony. He tastes like Addiction. He tastes like a moth drawn to flame.

O Jungfrau, sieh der Jungfrau Sorgen,
O Mutter, hör ein bittend Kind!
Ave Maria

I found my pants. And forgiveness.

Ave Maria! Unbefleckt! Wenn wir auf diesen Fels hinsinken Zum Schlaf, und uns dein Schutz bedeckt.

Holy Sanguine thirst, The good shepard is with me while i walk through this valley of taint. Keep me from my sins. O' Marie, Her lady of Fruit. Of unspoiled innocence. Deliver me from temptation Take my sins from me. O glorious shepard who hath not kept want from blood. Cleanse me in your fury.
Wird weich der harte Fels uns dünken.Du lächelst, Rosendüfte wehen In dieser dumpfen Felsenkluft, O Mutter, höre Kindes Flehen, O Jungfrau, eine Jungfrau ruft!
Ave Maria!


Ave Maria, gratia plena, Dominus tecum, Virgo serena.

Head your vassels please, till all debts paid in blood. Forgive me My shaprad And not walk unknownst to man unclean.

Ave cuius conceptio.

Enslave, and ensnare those who choose to not walk along the paths shed in the light of your wisdoum.
Ave Maria! Reine Magd! Der Erde und der Luft Dämonen,Von deines Auges Huld verjagt,
Sie können hier nicht bei uns wohnen, Wir woll'n uns still dem Schicksal beugen.

Forgive me I sin. Forgive my taint. A thousand souls i offer up to you in this time of awakening.

Forgive Me and my passes aginst you and your house.

Forgive me I remmber mercy.


Da uns dein heil'ger Trost anweht; Der Jungfrau wolle hold dich neigen,Dem Kind, das für den Vater fleht.
Ave Maria!


O Mater Dei, memento mei. Amen


Ave Maria
Gratia plena
Dominus tecum
Benedicta tu in mulieribus
Et benedictus fructus ventris
Tui, Jesus
Sancta Maria
Mater Dei
Ora pro nobis peccatoribus
Nunc et in hora mortis nostrae
Amen.



I found my pants.

[Malorii]

I learned of hot springs and relaxamazation. How this deals with combat i do not know.. but i did rather enjoy it even if i was a somewhat waste of time.. not a bad waste of time. I did enjoy it.


I think .. I shall go tresure hunting later. I'm feeling much better after the hot springs i havn't coughed as much.

[Skafloc]

(( <3 Mal! :D ))

[Malorii]

(( XD

[Malorii]

The Ball, I have never felt so beatiful and so fake at the same time .. and i think i liked it. But i will not let them know. It will be Marie and my own whisper.

http://i112.photobucket.com/albums/n170/xiexieni/HighCost.jpg

[Evanthe]

[Awesome picture Malorii. I should make you draw Eva sometime. ;) ]

[Sifar]

(( Gorgeous drawing, Mal! I wish I had such talents. And, yes, hot springs are great for relaxamazation...or...other stuff *wink* ))

[Malorii]

(( eva is on my to do list i just need to sit down and like do it I need t o get it scanned then do the line work then color XD but my scanner brokes.. D: the one i did for qau was the last one before the scanner went .. boom ))

[Malorii]

How fast the hunter can turn into the hunted. I bled so much today, so much pain and i have never been more happier. Soon i will have the stonescales for leibowitz and his potions he hates fishing.. Of course he has so much mind it will not allow him to fish.

And Qau.. We saw dragons he lost a bet i drained his mana. We ran like banshee. We discovered lost villages, we brought down towers and burned books. My bloodlust is still not quelled nor shall it until I fall in battle, or untill the good doctor comes for me. I stayed in the cave to rest a bit before going back to the undercity.

I pulled the lever in the lab, and i let myself go. I could hear him screaming in theb ack of my hear

" Quickly now! she's running out of my reach. Hurry do not let her reach origmarr! kill her quickly! "

I saw myself board the zepplin, but I made it at the last minute. I asked myself "Do you remmber apples.? I looked wild eye'd red hair and scars It looked like i had broken my wrists and some of my fingers to escape the shackles.

" I do not remmber apples." I looked like crying, broken down on the bow of the ship.
"Do you remmber tweeny six!?" I was screaming at myself.

I did not remmber twenny-six, I stared at myself before i spit and started screaming again.
" why is it that when i look into a mirror i see you stareing back at me! My memmories are my own you are not me and i am not you. He takes them and he replaces them with only thoughts he wants you to think. Kill me by shadow end my suffering!"

But I do not kill myself quickly, I let the doctor in. His mind vision finds me and then find myself. first is is his shadow word pain, and I place my hands around my neck and i squeeze.

" Do you remmber apples little bird?"

I squeeze harder and i am enjoying it. My neck snaps and goes limp. I do it right before the shadow word death goes off. I am dead I killed myself. I am the last one left. The rest of the projects have been euthenised by the good doctor.

I am left. I do not remmber apples. He says one word to me through dry paper thin lips, flesh stretched out, teeth peeking over like sick moon.

" Sleep."

Glory to the house.

"Forget."

Glory to the good doctor.

One scrap of paper is all i have I will not remmber this when i wake up.

http://i112.photobucket.com/albums/n170/xiexieni/Pants.jpg

[Malorii]

It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.

I can't remmber who said that or where i heard that. But it made me think back to him.

Without death we would have nothing, Only once things have truely become ash and have been burned thats when life really starts. I tried explaning this to someone today in the markets of bootbay, A goblin no less. There is an entire string of possablities. If things are be made "Well" as the good doctor has done for me then i think. I am going to start asking all the wrong questions, becuse those will give me all the right answers.

I planted an apple a few months ago, I am not allowed to eat them. It was a gift from sabby. It sprouted today in the dirt i brought in from un'goro. The seeds won't sprout on cursed soil. And as i sat there watching it grow i thought of roots. I am Project 27 The doctors master pupil. He has constructed me from ashes and turned me into a loyal servant..

But watch the tree grow i think back to Marie St.Clair and I can't help but want to know ..
Who was Project 1?

[Malorii]

A boat ride, a dive from cliffs two vials one to send to her first and then again later. Sabacthan my lord, my master my heir. For what i am about to do for you i hope you are content in the blood i am willing to spill in your name.

Am i a doll like the bubble-whore says, i told him i would forgive him for ..missing persons reports. Damn .. i should have made friends with more blood knights so I could ask anyone but him I hate begging..

Should it bother me that i do not care, If i am happy serving is that not enough?
I am happy in undercity. I find i have more things in common with the dead then i do with the living. Ironic? maybe..

I spoke to the firefly about records, just a peak will be a sin and i am prepared for such things. I know what the doctor will do and i know what i will do for the doctor to atone. My i flayed my back raw as payment for the sins i have sought out. A salted cat of nine tails was my jury. My skin burns. twelve licks for three very naughty thoughts. I haven't stopped bleeding yet.

Wedding records, Death records.. reports of missing persons. Fuck I don't even think this is my real name. Perhaps I am getting lost behidn the mask of Malorii Airas, the Maiden of ashes. Maybe i was always a number. A number defines me and i defile a number. Oh dear. I'm sinning again.

who knew you could fit so much sin into a one small shiny red apple?

[Lovely]

((<3 Malorii!))

[Malorii]

He is a drug and leaves me wanting more. From Stolen ships and burned bars, Wooden planks slick with fresh blood some mine some not mine. Mothers missing children, Men missing wives. So much death today. I got to lead an attack. It wasn't planned but it went well. My bloodlust is getting stronger it will not be quelled until everythign is in ashes. . . We held the port for a good two hours holding up to resitance. I saw shadowthorn. Shadowthorn saw me.. we said hello and he didn't move for awile.

think think think think think think think..

We saw the cliffs, poor brox dosn't know how to work a parachute.. I'm sure he blames his "accident." on me becuse i pushed him. He wants me for .. the thingie sabacthan is going to do to free him from the voices on the inside. I did not decline he has saved me many times from people who would see their sword slick with my blood, i would not deny him this request. And as for the firefly, I have told him things and he has told me things. We danced with aspects singlehandly him and i stopped an invasion of elementals in azahra .. He learned about piggies. I explored a bit more around the ashenvale and i found squid-goats and they found my blades.

[Malorii]

He says he'll help me, but there are things he needs to take care of first. I am fine with that. If I am nothing will we still have these little endearing adventures?
If i am nothing but a namesake would not the offerings of blood and gore hold the same meaning? What will the Doctor say..?

upcoming promotions maybe, work harder bring everything down to ash. Build an alter of bones in the front yard. A thousand little deaths before a single drop hits the ground.

Everything i love is made of monsters, I find beauty in them. I find the need to worship and obey. If that is what makes me, myself and I in the end and when it comes down to it. I am fine with that. Glory to the fallen five, glory to the good doctor, Glory to the house.

Qui pro nobis sanguinem sudavit.

Take my sins.

Qui pro nobis flagellatus est.

Take my sins.

Qui resurrexit a mortuis.

Take my sins.

In nomine Patris, Leibowitz.

[Malorii]

I coughed alot today, I stayed in the estate and did things like dishes and laundry. I found steve a new jaw.

[Malorii]

I sit at the window and I wait. The clocks have stopped ticking.

[Malorii]

Intresting.. The first conflict between The House and the Good doctor.
Shall i sit this one out or shall I play my part. Maybe i shouldn't get involved. Maybe i should? I need a daisy to help me decide.
The Doctor is pissed.. I'm sure i'll experince the wrath from one party or the other.. maybe both.

[Malorii]

Project 72.

Refrence name Tamora no last name given.

Race: Orc

Gender: Female

age: says she's 31 or 70 something we'll go with 30

Height: 6 dwarf toes 3 gnome twirls.

Weight: around 200 give or take.

Fel-taint. -Yes

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Given dosage of amoxodone 100 mg, pateint has not ingested waiting for "free will" Once 72 returns take one blood test might need to up the dosge 150.

[Malorii]

Brox you idiot what have you gotten yourself into this time, and why can't i stop you from doing something stupid! No matter.. They are not ghants but this one, yes this one is mine AND the doctors. We saw him first damn it. Should anything happen to kiki should he die, should he be maimed or his soul crushed. Mmyes the pits of molton core are but an icy illusion of my wrath. There will be suffering. There will be blood. No one fucks with the doctor, no one fucks with kiki and gets away with it without one of their loved ones getting maimed, while their chained up to a chair and have their loved ones insides fed to them in a broth. If they want me to stop they are going to have to kill me. I will haunt them and curse their familes. If they want me to stop they will have to exorsie me.

They are not Ghant, but kiki is mine and the doctors.

However, if kiki is well which i highly doubt I expect to get a letter from xenaken or someone stateng that no, alas your dear kikis head exploded. But if that letter does not come if Broxigan does come back to us then there shall be no need for violence agisnt the trepassers. Although he did kind of bring this on himself. WHAT THE FUCK WHERE YOU THINKING KIKI!? men.. orc men .. stubborn. Shouldn't dapple in dirt worshipers ways. I will have to watch him more closely.

This sickness is makeing me FUCKING CRAZY.. I can't stop coughing, maybe i should go back to the hot springs. I know where it is coming from it is in my lungs. I could have the doctor fix them yes, new lungs from a fresh sin'dorei corpse. This is going to be my little secret. however if i am found out, i know who's lungs i will use. Mmm... suprise suprise.

All i can do is wait.. and plan.

[Malorii]

It's confirmed. I will burn everything to ashes.. I will have retribution and vengance they WILL know suffering i will not stop until i am dead. For each drop of his blood will cost more then any coffer or relic. I will see to it .. I'll find their loved ones. I will maim them but that will not be enough.

by fire be purged.



No one fucks with the doctor, no one fucks with my kiki.

I will rape everything they hold sacred.

[Broxigan]

(( Egads. :O ))

[Malorii]

A rumor... It starts as a rumor. Deadwind pass.. I'll have to check. I have been ordered not to make any action aginst the ones who betrayed us. That of couse dosn't mean i can't find someone else who is more then willing to do the work i am not allowed to carry out yet.


think think think think think think think.

I'm going to finsh writeing this letter to the master and the other brother once i stop coughing. I took kiki to the secret spot today, I should have stopped him. Drugged him and locked him up till a REAL doctor could look at him. Where are you leibowitz? Have they taken you away from me again. You say you travel north. The letters have stopped. I am lost and lonley and angry.

I will have vengence. Hatred keeps me alive.

Everything is going to burn. I asked him to kill me and he said he would if the time came, I was grateful. Instinct takes over. I will make them suffer. I will rape what is theirs. A list a list a list places.. people .. places they have loved people they have talked to. Pick them off one by one.


Damn it feels like the good ole days.

[Malorii]

I took brox to the secret place, he slept really well all things considering. I also replaced his eyeballs with two marbles, the orc sleeps like a truck.. i wonder if he'll notice?
. Spoke to khaell.. trying to set up a meeting with the brothers around 6 ish on a tuesday in another location. Need to send invantations out.


*theres a picture here of houses burning and a very crude figure of a stack person weilding an axe chasing after other stick figures on fire*


Sabacthan is alive..?

Need to find evanthe.

[Malorii]

I got a letter from sabacthan. Qaubian has returned from his journey he says he saw the me that is not me that used to be me. Am i supposed to feel strange? Sad.. I don't know. Although i think i know the reson why I am forbidden to eat apples now. It makes sence.. I wonder how long till i forget again.

I don't think i will countine to search. This has been my own free will to find this information and I still find myself chooseing the doctor. Like spoiled children they broke their shiny toy and cried when they couldnt have another.. wait, those are not my thoughts..

My head hurts. A raid on stormwind gave enough time .. for things to happen.

tonight he is my deity and i will be his valkrye ..valkritye? hell i dunno. I shall burn the world in payment for his hard word.

[Malorii]

*A small violet flower is crushed up nice and smashed in the corner of the page*

Trust no one. Phase 1 and 2 nearing completion. do you see do you see do you see?

I got letters..

Mine and mine alone for the brothers and the brothers eyes alone.


Moi je m'appelle Lolita
Quand je rêve aux loups
C'est Lola qui saigne
Quand fourche ma langue,
J'ai là un fou rire aussi fou
Qu'une phénomène Je m'appelle Lolita
Lo de vie, lo aux amours diluviennes


A grand sailing, of pirate ships and golden chips. It was a family outting, A few clues i found some i speak. they could not stop us.

16 16 16 16. 16+16=32 16+16 = 80 ..

fig trees.. .. moonglade? wrong maybe.

When they realised they where naked they used fig leaves to cover themselves in shame. I am lost without you both.


so i dived, i flew grew wings and flew. I did not expect to live but i did. Off the great tree the moon touched whores covet and moan, he saw me jump I don't think he thought i would. I desacrated their temple. YOUR GODDESS IS DEAD AND DREAMS IN ETERNAL NIGHTMARE.
My gods do not sleep. They are with me in battle shareing the kill.
I bled today, the blood of the curse that not even the good doctor could take away. I bled in their water and swam beneth it's surface. Sanguine bodies old addictions. The fallen sentinals bobbing like apples.
He lost and i sacraficed him. He bled as well i think he enjoyed it they all bled. Strung up pretty moon touched whore dolls. A girl who sells apples underwater. I do not remmber. I remmber violets. I do not remmber HER violets. Desacrateing moonwells. now are caffinated moonwells. Your sacred water is esspreooooo broowwwnn... fucking pen is r n i n g o f k ..


*large scratches and scribbles can be seen here*


The other night it burned to the ground. everyone fell down that night. Was it fate perhaps the little pretty lie mothers tell their daughters before they tell them they've been sold off like sheep to the wolves of men?
the battle at the gate was just enough time too sing for him. Not him but him, the one i hear calling out to me in the back of my head when i am doubled over my lungs on fire with the red wet workings pumping their fluid up my throat and past molars and gums and my tounge and on to the floor i had scrubbed.

There is freedom in soup. the blaze of a thousand suns in finger tips on one target, sweet sweet desacration. I'm still not full. can't sleep .. I WILL stay awake, there is something i want to remmber i won't let them take it i'll hide with marie. Racing aginst this gnawing on the inside the blue beast hungers stronger. and i am dancing to it's violin.

I will trust the good doctor. I will protect my own. Everything else is ash.

[Malorii]

I found him.


I found stars, I thought they had gone away but hideing behind things. Having plans , just waiting for the right moment.




check mate.

[Malorii]

My lord keeps sending me letters but no return address, little riddles with little birds and little apples.

Then there is him .. Why does it make my chest hurt when he looks at me like that .. with those eyes . I feel like i'm going to vomit. I don't want him to feel like that. I don't want him to look at me like that. I'm not a doll.

But, oh the things that are going through my mind. He said he would sail north for research but no word from him yet.

Then there is him. Why did i promise him that why did i make that deal?

Then there is Him, I will tell him i found stars at the end of the world on beaches that have been lost to sailors, on beaches that have not seen had the caress of barefoot prints upon their sandy cheeks since the old ones fell. I will sing here I will sing and my lungs will burst and i will vomit on the sand like a fish on land.
I Sacrafice my voice to the sand to the winds I hope my song reaches him whereever he is

Don't get too close - this shore is cavernous and cold
Too close is cavernous and cold
Cavernous and cold
You're collecting empty shells
Too late to scribe
Alive - in my soul
I'd rather hide - than fight you stealing my soul
A marbled ocean of steaming ghosts
They bare what's tavernous and told
A haunted ocean is cavernous and cold
I am where the fearing dwells
Cavernous cold
Cavernous cold
Cold cold



(delerium ft medievil babes XD incantation )

[Broxigan]

(( -wonders who the first and third him are.- ))

[Malorii]

When he puts his mouth aginst mine to prevent me from screaming until my lungs are raw and bleeding, To stop me from chewing my own tounge off while running from monsters. It starts in the graveyard, fel when HASN'T it started in a grave yard?
He tastes like suffering and winter winds.

Fifteen men on a dead man's chest
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum
Drink and the devil had done for the rest
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum.
The mate was fixed by the bosun's pike
The bosun brained with a marlinspike
And cookey's throat was marked belike
It had been gripped by fingers ten;
And there they lay, all good dead men
Like break o'day in a boozing ken
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum.

From a simple fishing trip to heading north, screaming banshees. So much blood not much of it mine this time. funny little ones playing in the trees. Radurach was there, khaell.. brox. . It's strange to see him out of his study. We decided to go play.Damn, My pint sized nemises what will you drink tonight? fiffteen cases we lifted. Just to spite you we poured it all into the sea.



Fifteen men of the whole ship's list
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum!
Dead and be damned and the rest gone whist!
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum!
The skipper lay with his nob in gore
Where the scullion's axe his cheek had shore
And the scullion he was stabbed times four
And there they lay, and the soggy skies
Dripped down in up-staring eyes
In murk sunset and foul sunrise
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum

I think, this is what it must feel like to be completely free. Raiseing the flag high above the masts, swinging from rope to fray.

Fifteen men of 'em stiff and stark
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum!
Ten of the crew had the murder mark!
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum!
Twas a cutlass swipe or an ounce of lead
Or a yawing hole in a battered head
And the scuppers' glut with a rotting red
And there they lay, aye, damn my eyes
Looking up at paradise
All souls bound just contrawise
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum

For the first night in awile my thoughts where not with him, And it felt.. weird.

Fifteen men of 'em good and true
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum!
Ev'ry man jack could ha' sailed with Old Pew,
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum!
There was chest on chest of Spanish gold
With a ton of plate in the middle hold
And the cabins riot of stuff untold,
And they lay there that took the plum
With sightless glare and their lips struck dumb
While we shared all by the rule of thumb,
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum!


My rage is not yet forgotten, my wrath was quelled by the sounds of seagull pecking out the eyes of fresh corpses. I like birds.. such funny little things.

More was seen through a sternlight screen
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum
Chartings undoubt where a woman had been
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum.
'Twas a flimsy shift on a bunker cot
With a dirk slit sheer through the bosom spot
And the lace stiff dry in a purplish blot
Oh was she wench or some shudderin' maid
That dared the knife and took the blade
By God! she had stuff for a plucky jade
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum

Who says a woman dosn't make a good captain? I think i did well for myself. Off to a rocky finsh but a good one none the less.

Fifteen men on a dead man's chest
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum
Drink and the devil had done for the rest
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum.
We wrapped 'em all in a mains'l tight
With twice ten turns of a hawser's bight
And we heaved 'em over and out of sight,
With a Yo-Heave-Ho! and a fare-you-well
And a sudden plunge in the sullen swell
Ten fathoms deep on the road to hell,
Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum!

I wounder if i'll get anymore letters from my invisable master. The little tree is growing so big now, I water it everyday and i listen to marie. She say's Tree's need love to grow.. but I don't know how to give love so i think I am going to go find it so i can chop it up to bits and bury it in the soil to help fertilize my little apple tree. I don't know why marie cried when i told her that. I think i will name the tree Sabacthi. It is the name of the person who gave the seeds to me. I still keep the candles in the window lit and I still sing when i am able. Perhaps my songs will be heard perhaps not. The world is burning and i am holding a fistful of matches.

[Malorii]

I had fun with sabacthan today, even if he felt me weird places when i hugged him. I missed him so much i wish he would come hom. I think i know why he dissapers now, something skafloc said to him. I read him bedtime stories before he left.

Radurach was angry he told me i shoudld speack with the master of the house. He feels the same way i do. Skafloc asked me abotu khaell. And i asked skafloc about chauncy. He sure does have a nice butt.. not that i would of course .. what the fel. The doctor needs to come home soon i'm having such weird thoughts lately. This isn't normal, is it possiable i am being made unwell?

question lupen again

vilmah has large thights

play with neithan more


Marie and i walked under the apple tree today. I learned a new song. Once i get back to the estate i will sing it to sabacthan maybe he'll hear me. I hope my lungs don't explode. Broxigan is still searching for a doctor for me. This is dumb why did i agree to that? Not all doctors are the good doctor only one good doctor and he has sailed north.

[Ninorra]

((http://www.duchessofdork.com/sketches/skintest.jpg Those are not large! XD))

[Malorii]

(( If you can't be bones you need to go home D: .. lawls But i <3 you just the same XD )

[Malorii]

Now I wait. Now is the time to be silent. Now is the time to watch and listen. The players are lined up, the parts have been strung and oiled. Now i wait and i watch the dance.

[Malorii]

I found the door, i can get my foot in

I'm going to bring him home.

Down the rabbit hole.


valar dohaeris


http://i112.photobucket.com/albums/n170/xiexieni/SabacthanGhant.jpg

[Malorii]

Spring i can't belive it! The blossums have finally begun to bloom on the wisteria bushes, The violets he gave me to plant have also sprouted and will bloom soon. Tarren Mill is so boring, but with him around I feel so free.





Marie St.Claire




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