Catilyn
07-25-2010, 10:31 AM
Required Lies...
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Omy says: [Darnassian] ..Mother. Father....
Omy says: [Darnassian] I'm sorry it's been so long...
Omy sighs, folding her arms over her chest.
Omy says: [Darnassian] I'm not sure...what to do. Father.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Sometimes, I feel like the only thing moving me forward is ..some sort of, desire to make the past worthwhile.
Omy says: [Darnassian] To not have it go to waste.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Stopping....even this soul eating madness would destroy all that I believe in.
Omy lifts her goggles to rest on her head, her eyes tired as they stare at the tomb before her.
Omy says: [Darnassian] I feel like...a dark little...nobby rock that's been dropped down a dark well.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Polished only by the storm around me....with no one to talk to anymore. No one to trust....
Omy says: [Darnassian] This face, I have to put on for everyone else it's...
Omy runs a hand through her hair.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...tiresome. What with this pain in my back.
Omy says: [Darnassian] I mean; no one /cares/ mother. Not a one.
Omy looks down at the ground...
Omy says: [Darnassian] Is there....I mean, will there be a reason?
Omy says: [Darnassian] More allies turn to enemies and the good work we do is swept under a rug of..of greed and jealous numbers fighting numbers for the same stretch of blood stained street...
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...and no one cares who's blood it was that remains because there's too much of it to tell the difference.
Omy says: [Darnassian] And /still/ we fight and squabble amongst ourselves and ignore the pained cry for help in the darkness because it's not a voice we know.
Omy says: [Darnassian] And they go ON this way, Mother. Thinking they are somehow /right/! Somehow....entitled!
Omy shakes her head, closing her eyes as her voice drops.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...and people die. Orphans grow up clinging to every little scrap of joy they can get their tiny hands on and still...still....they look the other way.
Omy says: [Darnassian] And no one /asks/, Father.
Omy says: [Darnassian] No one dares to ask, to know.....
Omy says: [Darnassian] They assume, and the assumption suits their dark moods and they bicker and distrust and throw each other in the way of the Horde and the blade and...
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...and...
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...somehow, it works out. For some. And those some continue on thinking things like 'this is just how it is'.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Not, 'this is how we make it'.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Or, 'this is how it could be.'
Omy says: [Darnassian] Blades turn against one another like it's a simple argument.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Like, threatening one's life is equal to disagreement. Civilized. Non-threatening.
Omy says: [Darnassian] They show up for drinks afterwards without a feeling of shame in their heart.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Where's the /pride/, Father?
Omy says: [Darnassian] Where's that feeling that they can do /anything/ that I found appealing?
Omy says: [Darnassian] ....and why does no one care.
Omy says: [Darnassian] They care about the paperwork. The..the supplies and the gold and....and....
Omy 's hands clentch into fists.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ....but...
Omy shakes her head, leaving some thought to the wind, unsaid.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...I don't know how long it will be. Yet.
Omy says: [Darnassian] My...walking around. Talking. Shaming you with....rockets and mechanical wonders you don't see the need for.
Omy cracks a soft, pained smile.
Omy says: [Darnassian] There are things at work that even a set, stubborn mind cannot withstand, I fear.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ..not for want of the attempt, I might add.
Omy looks up at the sky for a moment, before her eyes drift to the tombstone again.
Omy says: [Darnassian] It might be sooner than I think, Mother. And then what?
Omy says: [Darnassian] The Watch falls apart? Or stays together?
Omy says: [Darnassian] ....and which hurts more, I wonder...
Omy fiddles with the [Commander's Signet] pinned to her collar.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Take...and take...and take....
Omy says: [Darnassian] Thin. Aye...that' how I feel, Father. And...feeling like you were right.
Omy says: [Darnassian] I /hate/ that feeling....
Omy says: [Darnassian] ..and yet I don't think I can avoid...or should avoid it.
Omy smirks a bit.
Omy says: [Darnassian] What's worse, do you think?
Omy says: [Darnassian] Believing until the end in something wrong...but dying thinking you've managed something great?
Omy says: [Darnassian] Or dying with the truth, as dark and as cold as it might be that the world at least held no veil of innocent dreamings? No wasted time...
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...but where would the Watch be, I wonder also...without the dream that gave it birth?
Omy sighs heavily.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...I'm sorry. I never come to speak to you about gentle things, do I?
Omy says: [Darnassian] Just...lay my troubles upon your cold souls...in some hope that an ancient voice long dead will soothe what torments me?
Omy says: [Darnassian] To stop it all from bottling up and destroying what I've built.
Omy says: [Darnassian] From, throwing it away.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...or worse.
Omy says: [Darnassian] You know, I vanished...Mother. Just left...without saying a word.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Thought maybe....people would care. You know? Like, Omy might have left for some...important reason...
Omy says: [Darnassian] No luck. None. Just.....people splintered, left the ranks....and, oh. My job unfulfilled.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Irresponsible.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Not a single. Blasted. Soul. Has asked.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ....I can't say it doesn't trouble me. I mean, I've given my LIFE, Mother. Every shred...
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...to these people and they don't KNOW me. And come to think of it, I hardly know them...
Catilyn blinks at Omy.
Catilyn says: Come again?
Omy sighs, turning around with her arms over her chest. ....nothing. Hello Cat.
Omy says: ...what brings you out here?
Catilyn dangles a coin pouch in front of Omy.
Catilyn says: These belong to you...
Omy says: Ah. Thanks Cat.
Catilyn says: I couldn't forgive myself if I didn't reimburse you.
Catilyn winks slyly at Omy.
Omy says: Mhm.
Catilyn looks around. To be honest, that's all I came here for...
Catilyn says: While I'm here though, did you need me for anything?
Omy keeps her arms folded. Behind her, a fresh bunch of flowers sits at the base of the tombstone. No...not really.... She raises a slow eyebrow. How'd you find me, anyway?
Catilyn says: Your Comm. Jus' tweaked mine a bit to home in on you.
Catilyn says: Sprung helped me with it.
Omy points to the comm with her chin. It's sitting on the bench by the archway. Hn, that thing eh? I'll have to fix it.
Catilyn says: ... I'm not interrupting anything, am I?
Catilyn says: Oh! I met up with Dag's the other night, I meant to ask you somethin'.
Omy 's face twists a bit. No...I just like talking to myself in the middle of- She cuts herself short, rubbing her temple. When she speaks again, her voice is without the annoyed tone. Oh? About what? It sounds...overly light, though.
Catilyn says: Is it true you n' Otton were... y'know... ?
Omy raises her eyebrow as high as it can go, her voice dipping into the begining strains of anger. Were we, /what/?
Catilyn blinks. I thought I heard something about you and Otton bein' ... intimate?
Catilyn says: Wait, mabye that was Sprung...
Catilyn says: Anyway, yeah...
Omy 's face is caught between utter shock, a bit of a pained expression and brimming anger. What emerges is a simple, strong and clipped. NO.
Catilyn pauses for a moment, considering this. Guess he was mistaken, then...
Omy speaks through her teeth. We were good friends, one of my first good friends in a long while. He betrayed me, betrayed us all and I should have killed him....that's about as far from...from...intimate as you can get.
Catilyn says: ... Well, 'least that's clarified.
Omy says: I'll have to speak to Daigil.
Catilyn says: It might have been Sprung.
Catilyn says: I can't recall.
Omy 's voice snaps. Well remember.
Catilyn gives Omy a look.
Catilyn remains silent, focusing on you.
Omy says: It's not the kind of thing that should be said without ...well....THOUGHT.
Catilyn seems to be tracing her memories...
Catilyn says: I believe it was Dags.
Omy says: ...well then I'll be...talking....to him.
Catilyn looks serious, pondering this.
Omy says: ...any other idiotic rumors you'd like to ask about?
Omy scowls.
Catilyn says: In any case...
Catilyn eyes Omy up and down.
Catilyn says: You alright? You look a bit....
Catilyn looks concerned. Something I can't put my finger on...
Omy shakes her head at the woman, her mood remaining sour. ...if you mean tired, in any manner of speaking, then yes. I suppose I would be.
Catilyn says: . . .
Catilyn pauses for a moment, peering at Omy a little more before dismissing the thought.
Catilyn blinks at you.
Catilyn says: Oh, that's right.
Catilyn says: One other thing.
Omy offers a level look....
Catilyn says: 'member the pardon you got me?
Omy nods, her smile remaining non-existant.
Catilyn offers Omy a smile. How'd you get that, any way?
Omy says: ...does it really matter now? It's done...and I'm happy it worked out.
Catilyn raises her eyebrow inquisitively at Omy.
Catilyn 's expression returns to neutral. Commander... is there something I should know regarding that? She seems firm.
Omy sighs tersely. It's utterly legit, if that's what you're worried about. None of the steps getting it have any hold on you what so-ever.
Catilyn says: "Steps" ?
Omy scowls. Yes. Steps. As in, you didn't really think I could just up and ask for a pardon, now could I?
Catilyn says: I'm not daft.
Omy says: ...then why do you ask?
Catilyn says: Frankly, it seems... too easy, to achieve what you managed.
Omy scoffs.
Omy says: Easy?
Omy says: ...right...
Catilyn says: Enlighten me. I'm in the dark, 'ere.
Catilyn says: What kind of "steps" ?
Omy 's eyes leave the woman's face, roaming around aimlessly. ...why does it matter?
Catilyn remains stern. Omy...
Omy says: Don't teat me like a child, Catilyn.
Catilyn says: I'm not. that's why I'm asking you up front.
Omy says: Then, why does it matter.
Catilyn says: Because I'm asking.
Catilyn says: and because you're avoiding the subject.
Catilyn frowns somewhat.
Omy scowls, her eyebrows knitting together. She turns back to the tomb for a moment, whispering something that sounds like an apology.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...sorry. I'll be back. Mother. Father.
Catilyn peers at Omy searchingly.
Omy bows down graciously.
Omy says: Come on...
Catilyn eyes you up and down.
Catilyn follows.
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Omy says: [Darnassian] ..Mother. Father....
Omy says: [Darnassian] I'm sorry it's been so long...
Omy sighs, folding her arms over her chest.
Omy says: [Darnassian] I'm not sure...what to do. Father.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Sometimes, I feel like the only thing moving me forward is ..some sort of, desire to make the past worthwhile.
Omy says: [Darnassian] To not have it go to waste.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Stopping....even this soul eating madness would destroy all that I believe in.
Omy lifts her goggles to rest on her head, her eyes tired as they stare at the tomb before her.
Omy says: [Darnassian] I feel like...a dark little...nobby rock that's been dropped down a dark well.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Polished only by the storm around me....with no one to talk to anymore. No one to trust....
Omy says: [Darnassian] This face, I have to put on for everyone else it's...
Omy runs a hand through her hair.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...tiresome. What with this pain in my back.
Omy says: [Darnassian] I mean; no one /cares/ mother. Not a one.
Omy looks down at the ground...
Omy says: [Darnassian] Is there....I mean, will there be a reason?
Omy says: [Darnassian] More allies turn to enemies and the good work we do is swept under a rug of..of greed and jealous numbers fighting numbers for the same stretch of blood stained street...
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...and no one cares who's blood it was that remains because there's too much of it to tell the difference.
Omy says: [Darnassian] And /still/ we fight and squabble amongst ourselves and ignore the pained cry for help in the darkness because it's not a voice we know.
Omy says: [Darnassian] And they go ON this way, Mother. Thinking they are somehow /right/! Somehow....entitled!
Omy shakes her head, closing her eyes as her voice drops.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...and people die. Orphans grow up clinging to every little scrap of joy they can get their tiny hands on and still...still....they look the other way.
Omy says: [Darnassian] And no one /asks/, Father.
Omy says: [Darnassian] No one dares to ask, to know.....
Omy says: [Darnassian] They assume, and the assumption suits their dark moods and they bicker and distrust and throw each other in the way of the Horde and the blade and...
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...and...
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...somehow, it works out. For some. And those some continue on thinking things like 'this is just how it is'.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Not, 'this is how we make it'.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Or, 'this is how it could be.'
Omy says: [Darnassian] Blades turn against one another like it's a simple argument.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Like, threatening one's life is equal to disagreement. Civilized. Non-threatening.
Omy says: [Darnassian] They show up for drinks afterwards without a feeling of shame in their heart.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Where's the /pride/, Father?
Omy says: [Darnassian] Where's that feeling that they can do /anything/ that I found appealing?
Omy says: [Darnassian] ....and why does no one care.
Omy says: [Darnassian] They care about the paperwork. The..the supplies and the gold and....and....
Omy 's hands clentch into fists.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ....but...
Omy shakes her head, leaving some thought to the wind, unsaid.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...I don't know how long it will be. Yet.
Omy says: [Darnassian] My...walking around. Talking. Shaming you with....rockets and mechanical wonders you don't see the need for.
Omy cracks a soft, pained smile.
Omy says: [Darnassian] There are things at work that even a set, stubborn mind cannot withstand, I fear.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ..not for want of the attempt, I might add.
Omy looks up at the sky for a moment, before her eyes drift to the tombstone again.
Omy says: [Darnassian] It might be sooner than I think, Mother. And then what?
Omy says: [Darnassian] The Watch falls apart? Or stays together?
Omy says: [Darnassian] ....and which hurts more, I wonder...
Omy fiddles with the [Commander's Signet] pinned to her collar.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Take...and take...and take....
Omy says: [Darnassian] Thin. Aye...that' how I feel, Father. And...feeling like you were right.
Omy says: [Darnassian] I /hate/ that feeling....
Omy says: [Darnassian] ..and yet I don't think I can avoid...or should avoid it.
Omy smirks a bit.
Omy says: [Darnassian] What's worse, do you think?
Omy says: [Darnassian] Believing until the end in something wrong...but dying thinking you've managed something great?
Omy says: [Darnassian] Or dying with the truth, as dark and as cold as it might be that the world at least held no veil of innocent dreamings? No wasted time...
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...but where would the Watch be, I wonder also...without the dream that gave it birth?
Omy sighs heavily.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...I'm sorry. I never come to speak to you about gentle things, do I?
Omy says: [Darnassian] Just...lay my troubles upon your cold souls...in some hope that an ancient voice long dead will soothe what torments me?
Omy says: [Darnassian] To stop it all from bottling up and destroying what I've built.
Omy says: [Darnassian] From, throwing it away.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...or worse.
Omy says: [Darnassian] You know, I vanished...Mother. Just left...without saying a word.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Thought maybe....people would care. You know? Like, Omy might have left for some...important reason...
Omy says: [Darnassian] No luck. None. Just.....people splintered, left the ranks....and, oh. My job unfulfilled.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Irresponsible.
Omy says: [Darnassian] Not a single. Blasted. Soul. Has asked.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ....I can't say it doesn't trouble me. I mean, I've given my LIFE, Mother. Every shred...
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...to these people and they don't KNOW me. And come to think of it, I hardly know them...
Catilyn blinks at Omy.
Catilyn says: Come again?
Omy sighs, turning around with her arms over her chest. ....nothing. Hello Cat.
Omy says: ...what brings you out here?
Catilyn dangles a coin pouch in front of Omy.
Catilyn says: These belong to you...
Omy says: Ah. Thanks Cat.
Catilyn says: I couldn't forgive myself if I didn't reimburse you.
Catilyn winks slyly at Omy.
Omy says: Mhm.
Catilyn looks around. To be honest, that's all I came here for...
Catilyn says: While I'm here though, did you need me for anything?
Omy keeps her arms folded. Behind her, a fresh bunch of flowers sits at the base of the tombstone. No...not really.... She raises a slow eyebrow. How'd you find me, anyway?
Catilyn says: Your Comm. Jus' tweaked mine a bit to home in on you.
Catilyn says: Sprung helped me with it.
Omy points to the comm with her chin. It's sitting on the bench by the archway. Hn, that thing eh? I'll have to fix it.
Catilyn says: ... I'm not interrupting anything, am I?
Catilyn says: Oh! I met up with Dag's the other night, I meant to ask you somethin'.
Omy 's face twists a bit. No...I just like talking to myself in the middle of- She cuts herself short, rubbing her temple. When she speaks again, her voice is without the annoyed tone. Oh? About what? It sounds...overly light, though.
Catilyn says: Is it true you n' Otton were... y'know... ?
Omy raises her eyebrow as high as it can go, her voice dipping into the begining strains of anger. Were we, /what/?
Catilyn blinks. I thought I heard something about you and Otton bein' ... intimate?
Catilyn says: Wait, mabye that was Sprung...
Catilyn says: Anyway, yeah...
Omy 's face is caught between utter shock, a bit of a pained expression and brimming anger. What emerges is a simple, strong and clipped. NO.
Catilyn pauses for a moment, considering this. Guess he was mistaken, then...
Omy speaks through her teeth. We were good friends, one of my first good friends in a long while. He betrayed me, betrayed us all and I should have killed him....that's about as far from...from...intimate as you can get.
Catilyn says: ... Well, 'least that's clarified.
Omy says: I'll have to speak to Daigil.
Catilyn says: It might have been Sprung.
Catilyn says: I can't recall.
Omy 's voice snaps. Well remember.
Catilyn gives Omy a look.
Catilyn remains silent, focusing on you.
Omy says: It's not the kind of thing that should be said without ...well....THOUGHT.
Catilyn seems to be tracing her memories...
Catilyn says: I believe it was Dags.
Omy says: ...well then I'll be...talking....to him.
Catilyn looks serious, pondering this.
Omy says: ...any other idiotic rumors you'd like to ask about?
Omy scowls.
Catilyn says: In any case...
Catilyn eyes Omy up and down.
Catilyn says: You alright? You look a bit....
Catilyn looks concerned. Something I can't put my finger on...
Omy shakes her head at the woman, her mood remaining sour. ...if you mean tired, in any manner of speaking, then yes. I suppose I would be.
Catilyn says: . . .
Catilyn pauses for a moment, peering at Omy a little more before dismissing the thought.
Catilyn blinks at you.
Catilyn says: Oh, that's right.
Catilyn says: One other thing.
Omy offers a level look....
Catilyn says: 'member the pardon you got me?
Omy nods, her smile remaining non-existant.
Catilyn offers Omy a smile. How'd you get that, any way?
Omy says: ...does it really matter now? It's done...and I'm happy it worked out.
Catilyn raises her eyebrow inquisitively at Omy.
Catilyn 's expression returns to neutral. Commander... is there something I should know regarding that? She seems firm.
Omy sighs tersely. It's utterly legit, if that's what you're worried about. None of the steps getting it have any hold on you what so-ever.
Catilyn says: "Steps" ?
Omy scowls. Yes. Steps. As in, you didn't really think I could just up and ask for a pardon, now could I?
Catilyn says: I'm not daft.
Omy says: ...then why do you ask?
Catilyn says: Frankly, it seems... too easy, to achieve what you managed.
Omy scoffs.
Omy says: Easy?
Omy says: ...right...
Catilyn says: Enlighten me. I'm in the dark, 'ere.
Catilyn says: What kind of "steps" ?
Omy 's eyes leave the woman's face, roaming around aimlessly. ...why does it matter?
Catilyn remains stern. Omy...
Omy says: Don't teat me like a child, Catilyn.
Catilyn says: I'm not. that's why I'm asking you up front.
Omy says: Then, why does it matter.
Catilyn says: Because I'm asking.
Catilyn says: and because you're avoiding the subject.
Catilyn frowns somewhat.
Omy scowls, her eyebrows knitting together. She turns back to the tomb for a moment, whispering something that sounds like an apology.
Omy says: [Darnassian] ...sorry. I'll be back. Mother. Father.
Catilyn peers at Omy searchingly.
Omy bows down graciously.
Omy says: Come on...
Catilyn eyes you up and down.
Catilyn follows.